It’s not something I wanted to do but things just couldn’t be repaired
After counseling and hearing some of the stories of her past
And no it wasn’t that she was a hoe
But she was a victim of sexual assault
She buried it deep down and it all came rushing out one day
We tried for 6 months after that counseling session and ultimately it was her decision to go through with the proceedings
The legal divorce part was easy because I didn’t want anything from her but shared custody of my daughter
And all she wanted was child support
But I let her have everything
The house, the ride I bought her, everything
I needed a fresh start and she as well
She eventually sold our home and tried to give me some paper but I told her to invest into our daughters college fund/trust
It was tough for about a year
Buried myself in work and when I had my daughter on the weekends(like I still do)
Preoccupied all my focus on her but during the week was rough
Won’t lie 3 of those months I was drinking
The feeling of failure, guilt, shame
I really wanted to stay with her
Didn’t want my seed growing up in a broken home and our coparenting skills were terrible at that time
Eventually we both got deeper help and really focused on the work of healing ourselves
Not just our broken marriage but individually
Met my current wife
Now I truly didn’t want to get married
I was really done with women outside of just beat and skeet
Plus these hoes be acting up
So trying to explore something real with women in this day and age
Especially around 2015-16
That’s where I noticed the shift in bullshyt
But this woman really came into my life
Didnt ask for shyt
Didn’t expect shyt
Was actually nice to me and spoke in a manner I wasn’t accustomed to
Gave me perspective
Told me the truth about her and wasn’t scared to call me on bullshyt
And so here we are 5 years deep and I wouldn’t change the decision I made
But she is the last woman I’ll ever be with seriously
Even if it falls apart
GMB brehs
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