Are You Hiding What You're Really Going Through???

[Black Cobain]

Around most people irl and online, yeah. I don't really have friends to talk to about my problems, just close acquaintances.

 

[King Poetic]

People with kids I try to avoid because I have no understanding of taking care of kids and understanding what u and your kids and wife or husband or single moms out there are doing....

Then I have to hear u need to have some kids... I'm like Motherfukker im old

 

[Vice Queen]

The question is who isn't?

 

[MoonGoddess]

Ha! This was just me. I love my family but they put a lot of stress on me. It's hard when ur sense of family is so strong. Then you can't even talk to them about what's bothering you because they are ur main issue. Plus a bunch of other shyt and yeah I gotta wear my mask. Everyone thinks I'm just this happy go lucky person. And I wear that facade because i don't want them asking me what's wrong. I know one day the dam will break tho. Crying quietly in my room isn't giving me relief. Even smoking don't help cause all it does is make me think more. But i gotta be strong, it's how I was raised.

 

[Giselle]

Do you wear a mask alot?

Ya know ...like while everybody around you is talking smiling laughing clowning around and you are too but you know deep inside your like

Nope

 

[Hope]

Nope. I'm as sick as my secrets. I'll commit suicide or go on a long drug run fronting.

Expressing feelings is risky though, can get hurt or it can be used against you. I don't telll everybody business tho. Have people I trust, I'm blessed.

 

[MF budz]

Luckily i have like 5 friends and weve been tight since middle school. They know about my depression/anxiety struggles. We always have each others backs and im greatful for it. With everyone elsd i just go through the motions though. Im cold hearted alot of the time Nx ive been working on it.

 

[BrehWyatt]

Yes. And since I've let some friends in, so to speak, it's hard to hide shyt from them now. I don't like it because I'm used to being the dude who just seems so ... unbothered

But, there are times where I truly believe that the ability to bash someone in the face with no consequence from time to time would make things go smoother. Have multiple moments of considerable jadedness/bitterness more often.

 

[Dixon Cider]

Do you wear a mask alot?

Ya know ...like while everybody around you is talking smiling laughing clowning around and you are too but you know deep inside your like

bytch asked me if I had good credit

 

[Brandon M.]

yall motherfukkers goin through it....whats the reason

 

[George's Dilemma]

Yep and ppl r doing worst

So i count my blessings

The fact that there are others going through worse it what kills me sometimes. Like I hate justifying my own torment because other folks got it worse. Sometimes I feel like the "others have it worse" is a copout. Its a red herring too because what does their suffering have to do with my own anguish? Right? Like I dont think I'm selfish for having those thoughts. Or am I? Those attempts at being dismissive to justify my own selfish b!tching arent dominant either as I definitely try to view those sentiments in fact, selfish. Life is a mess.

 

[Clayton Endicott]

 

[Clayton Endicott]

Worst part is it's not even family that's doing it. People are that desperate for likes. shyt is mad disrespectful.

This chick was at my grandfather's visitation doing that shyt. Nobody knew who she was neither. shyt had me heated.

 

[Poetical Poltergeist]

I just wanna fukk other bytches .

 

[Pazzy]

..sometimes keeping it to yourself ends in suicide.

This especially. It's okay to talk and even hire someone whose job is to listen to you and all your problems.

Thats another issue that I wanted to touch on in my other response. Basically, many people will tell others who are open about their issues and crying for help to shut the fukk up about their problems and to deal with it. While that may be honesty as hearing about pain brings about pain, misery loves company. Saying that shyt does damage. It makes that person feel even worse or that the problem is them where it could turn into self hate. For some people that is just a key to the suicide gate. The idea that no one cares about them when all it takes is just one person to give someone that has no hope hope.

Personally, I've had my parents basically give me that attitude growing up and even now they still have it. It was like "you have no reason to have problems so you should shut up and be happy" or "we can't help you. You have to tough it out on your own." It was hurtful. Even worse is if you have a sibling where they basically are doing for them exactly what you are begging them to do for you. I cringe at the idea of how my mom seemed to be more concerned about my brothers state of mind where she was worried about him being depressed and shyt like that growing up and even now but when it comes to me, she would give me the cold shoulder saying I was too demanding, need attention, not going through shyt and all this bs basically saying how I should be smiling because she would buy food and material ideas and go out her way to do things she thought would keep me happy instead of actually listening to me. I love my mom but I wish she would have listened to me when I was reaching out to her for help when I was really going through it instead of her acting like everything was fine. She was and is a good mother that tried to love me the best way she could the way she knew how but don't think she did me justice as she kind of helped enable a monster. Thats one of the reasons why i would rant on sohh back then especially in high school because i had no one willing to listen or help me so i basically used the internet to do that. Spoiling me and other things instead of basically letting me develop into my own person and helping me along the way intervening when she had too instead of just trying to give me what she didn't have or what her mom didn't give her. I love her and always will. Now as an adult, I have to take responsibility of who I am today and apart of that is having to sit my own ego and denial down and seek out help.