not at first but it seems like, for me at least, it might take that turn later on. had a few friends die, others were fair weather. i think it also has something to do with what point i'm at, personally, in life. like, i was isolated in my twenties out of pure desire and, in part, necessity. i don't think i have to go out here alone anymore but i'm realizing, at the same time, i'm not too happy with others around me either. so, to prevent a cycle of strife, i'll carry my baggage by myself for the time being...