At What Age Did Your Heart Turn Cold?

[bogey_j]

the thing was i told her hey i trust you and love but dont be stupid and do something i will know for the simple fact EVERYBODY KNEW ME IN TOKYO i had a lot of female friends for starters and also cuz of that YAKUZA INCIDENT

now you gotta tell the story for that one

 

[Dusty Bake Activate]

In 1st grade when this big dumb nikka who was like 8 in 1st grade and had a 20 year old mother beat me up for no reason when the teacher left the room. I was a kind-hearted kid before that. It's been ever since.

 

[Nintendough]

When I turned 20, I became an anti-social savage.

 

[Black White Sox Hat]

i feel sorry for you heartless mother fukkers

 

[MikelArteta]

22, but at 26 was warm again

Sent from royalty breh

 

[ch15x]

I developed a "thermostat" by the 20's. I know how to pick and choose my battles. Just enough folks on this rock to or ...

 

[King Poetic]

when it comes to personal life i'm cold hearted- i trust no one period, except mom and pops

when it comes to work i'm half & half depends on the situation because money is involved, so i balanced the situation

 

[MikelArteta]

When i was stationed in japan i was just bout that aint nothing better than new p*ssy life. sure i dated some chics at times but a serious relationship i only had like 3.

anyways she was my first love on some fukking movie type the min i saw her it was over for me. it was like cupid hit me with a NUKE no matter how hard i tried to fight it i couldnt help it

before i left we got engaged and planned on getting married the summer i would go see her and bring her back with a fiancee visa worse case scenario if i had problems getting married on post.

while i was in the states we would email but i wouldnt get much responses so i ended up calling more often than none. we would talk. the thing was i told her hey i trust you and love but dont be stupid and do something i will know for the simple fact EVERYBODY KNEW ME IN TOKYO i had a lot of female friends for starters and also cuz of that YAKUZA INCIDENT

well 2 months in i got a phone call and a email saying she did wrong by a female friend and i talked to her bout it and she confessed more than she should of cuz the female friend said she saw her exchange numbers and all i said was u shouldnt be doing that period and she told me she slept with him


so i was all heartbroken crying on the phone cuz it truly hurt my heart and soul cuz i really loved that girl and as we were talking i picked up my bill and that shyt said $3000 and that made me on top of sad.

as we were talking all she can say was sorry it wont happen again but i was like fukk THAT WE DONE TIP i told her look i will forgive in due time but for now i wanna call of the engagement we will stay together as bf and gf and then she fukked up and said this

IF I CANT STAY AS YOUR FIANCEE THEN I DONT WANNA EVEN BE YOUR FRIEND after she said i heard the cracks fall apart fell the my heart scarred and i just said fine u will never hear from me again and hung up.

ever since then i never was the same i became more of an a$$hole and cold hearted more guarded

u can call how i fell in love with her blind love or whatever but i kid u not she had a brother wrapped around her finger and wasnt cuz of the sex cuz that was just ok. it was on some shyt that i have never felt before and even i hated it cuz in alot of ways i knew she wasn't no good for me due to other shyt that had happen but i couldnt walk away till that cheating happened

Damn breh


Sent from royalty breh

 

[bogey_j]

22, but at 26 was warm again

Sent from royalty breh

fukk outta here with this warm again bullshyt

your shyt never turned cold in the first place then

 

[twan83]

now you gotta tell the story for that one

well u know how this works where u have female friends and u get with a few of them then they talk to their girls and they approach you and u get with them and etc its like endless cycle going thru the grapevine that was one of them due to word of mouth and curiousity

but the biggest was the yakuza incident

i would go to the club every fri and sat and see this one chic always getting in a fight with girls or dudes and beating their asses literally had me like anyways me and my boys were walking to train station from roppongi to head back to base when we saw her getting her ass beat literally by 3 guys and she was taking it like a G and then a african guy protecting her and i saw that shyt and was on some

cant stand dudes hitting females so me and my boys run over break it up of course those 3 guys speaking japanese i only knew some but couldnt understand shyt the african guy was bleeding she was bruised up a little but fine yelling at them one of them stepped up too me and i said back the fukk up which he seemingly knew and gave me the BIRD and i was like u wanna go at it but

then we heard the cops and as americans we aint trying to get arrested in a foreign country so we bounced to 7 eleven till it died down and went back when we got back we saw the african dude get arrested not understand y. there was a crowd there and i was yelling he didnt do shyt he was protecting her and this lady who spoke english and jap said it dont matter there yakuza and at that time i didnt know wtf that was

i saw those 3 japs give cops a wad of money and walk away and then i yelled fukk that and they saw me and all 3 came over with one who look like he was leading them while me and my boys stood there that jap called me a ****** i said fukk that imma kick ur ass AMERICAN STYLE lets go then that same lady said dont do it and then this african cat all pimped out said go head i got ur back this nikka had a gun and im like wtf is this turning into and that jap said in english SEE YOU LATER. i was hella confused

the lady started to break down and tell me exactly who they were and i was like so i started to walk back to station with my boys and this mercedez ben tinted out comes by us driving slow pulls down window and i see dude and he points too me with the gun finger like he had a gun and laughed and drove off

my boys said yup ur fukkED bout a hr later i got like several phone calls from my female friends and some homeboys saying WTF DID U DO?

im like nothing i didnt fight nobody just got in each other face and stopped a fight and they were saying u got a bounty on ur head do not go to TOKYO for a min. im like wtf u mean bounty they looking for u to beat ur ass or maybe kill u

so i took there words serious and didnt even go down there for 1 month. 2 weeks in that time i called in for a dental emergency and this dude lost majority of his teeth. i asked what happened. he said for some damn reason the yakuza thought i was somebody and beat my ass with a bat and nobody stopped it not even the cops i was like damn thats fukked up. inside myself i was like then he said they stopped once they realized i was the wrong guy though

so i waited a 1 month since i figured that be enough time when i went out people were looking at me crazy (from my understanding of em took a pic of me with the phone not sure if true or not but might of been cuz people would try to stay away from me)

well anyways i ran into that chic and talked to her to find out y it happened and cuz i wanted to hit it to be honest cuz she was (found out later she did porn too)

anyways one of the yakuza guys approached me never seen this one but he was one cuz i was told. she stepped up and said no he is bounty free i took care of it already today.

i was hell confused apparently she got her ass beat cuz she broke up with one of the head guys and he wasnt having it. the day i went she squashed that shyt with herself and that head dude and said just leave me outta of it
and thats how the bounty got off my head pretty much

 

[Mr. Somebody]

It didnt. A cold heart is a sign that God may have left you. Lets be cold to the devil instead of whats right and good, friends.

 

[sanityovar8ted]

my heart has yet to turn cold, maybe its one of my flaws.

 

[sfgiants]

I was only 19- still a young man, but my MIND was old.

Then, things got for real.
And my heart turn cold.

another nicca deceased, another story was told. It wasn't nothing really. Ayo dun, spark the philly. So I can get my mind off these yellow backed niccas. Why are they still alive? I dont know. Go figure

Meanwhile, back in Queens, the realness is foundation
if i die, i couldnt choose a better location.
When the slugs penetrate, you feel a burning sensation
Getting closer to God, in a tight situation now.. take these words home and think it thru
or the next rhyme i write might be about you

 

[Mr. Pink]

I was only 19 but my mind was old, so when things got for real my warm heart turned cold.

 

[Sandy_Cheeks]

my heart has yet to turn cold, maybe its one of my flaws.

Not at all. This is a rarity. Most people are cold, hardened, and disconnected due to fear of being hurt (again).

You being the opposite is a blessing.