Black Lives Matter activist Marshawn McCarrel commits suicide at Ohio statehouse

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RIP

 

[JamilALAmin]

If it wasn't for me being a Narcissist and Nihilist, my depression may get the better of me too...but i truly believe other im better than you....even if im not. You got a million bucks?....i have 100..im still better than you....you good looking?...im better looking...you taller..im faster?......you smarter?......im more creative. Yes its delusional but i couldn't fathom taking my own life...i cant imagine how far down the abyss he looked and lived R.I.P.

I feel you breh. I got some issues myself and I think the exact same way. And I don't call it delusional, that shyt is real. Even with all the problems this shyt has given me it also has given me a perspective on life that not many have and I'm very thankful for that. Had to just immerse myself in achieving my goals. Working out and cutting down on certain things in my diet helps too. Weed also helps. Lots of it. Still have dark days. But shyt is way better than when I was younger. My thought process was scary then. Never really thought about taking my own life but I used to legit fantasize about taking somebody out. Used to day dream about that shyt. That was my way of escaping. Just giving up on everything and doing some shyt so foul they'd have to put me under the joint until I turned into dust.

Manic depression and bi polar shyt is real in our community. And speaking from experience a good number of these young boys out here doing this craziness are doing it because of that. shyt just ain't being treated. I know what that hopelessness shyt feels like and it goes hand in hand with being a knucklehead.

 

[Jean toomer]

The most I have dealt with is mild depression. I believe that depression is like a monkey on your back that won't go away. Its like you want to escape from it, but no matter how high and great you get you can't escape. I believe that a lot of people kill themselves due to that. They can not escape that feeling of hopelessness, anger, and frustration. Its like when they kill themselves they finally find peace and are released from their prison.

Thanks you for sharing. I think it will be easier to confront mental health in minority communities if we stop stigmatizing it as the abstract. Depression is a chemical imbalance triggered by genetic predisposition and environmental factors. If we approached it as the disease it is I honestly think more people would seek help before it's too late.

 

[Jean toomer]

Exactly. fukking p*ssy.

How the hell you talking about black lives matter, yet you voluntarily ended yours?

Nothing but attention seeking behavior

The level of callousness here never ceases to amaze me.

 

[Jean toomer]

This is why more black people need to go into the mental health fields. Especially as psychologists and psychiatrists.

I remember in 2010 I had a nervous breakdown due to depression while I was in college. I admitted myself into a western psych ward and stayed their for 8 days on my own volition. Afterwards, I was forced to go into a focus group. I was one of two black people there in a group of 15 white people.

I remember I was expressing my frustrations and what made me feel the way I did...feeling alientated, alone, not fitting in, feeling like a token. Everyone looked at me like I was just irrationally angry for no reason. They didn't understand what I was going through. Eventually after three days I just stopped going.

All they can say is "it gets better"....white people can't relate to our problems or others. They can pretend they care...they don't.

Glad you're better. I couldn't agree more with your points. I do think though that a lack of understanding in some situations transcends race. I mean read some of the responses in this thread.

 

[Rick Fox at UNC]

WTF, I bet the CACs going to say hell he didn't think his black life matter so why should we. They probably eating cheese and cake off of this.

We really gotta stop worrying about how white folks are going to react.

The level of self-loathing, just sad.

 

[Field Marshall Bradley]

It's complete disregard and disrespect for the people who do care about you

What if he didn't have anyone in his family that was dependent on him?

 

[badtguy]

We really need to stop looking at depression and suicide as being "some cac shyt"

Definitely some cac shyt. When you live around whites you adopt their mentality this goes for any non white person living in a white majority area.

Why the fukk would i kill myself, while plenty of racist cacs are still living and breathing.

In general people always want to attach themselves to something to keep focused and not go crazy, sometimes that something is actually driving them crazy.

 

[88m3]

damn

 

[Gravity]

It is.

As someone who almost went through with it...it was thinking about my family that made me not go through with it. They needed me more than I needed them at that point and I couldn't imagine that grief I would put them through by committing suicide.

Respect my man. Glad you fought thru the tough times. I'm really not insensitive to people who battle demons and bouts with mental illness. We have to call suicide what it is though. Just think about your parents and kids.

 

[Champagne Kudo]

Damn I aint even hear about this today

RIP my Columbus brotha

 

[Londilon]

I wonder what was the trigger?

 

[notPsychosiz]

 

[HellRell804]

My pops told mi to NEVER take your life because: "Coward's do that. It don't matter if you're rich or poor, you take your life you're a coward. If you ever take your life without seeking any kind of help, I'm not going to give you a funeral. I'm just going to bury you and walk away. Write coward on your tomb stone(). You're a warrior! Yes, there's going to be times where you're going to fall to your knees and the devil have you by your soul! But my son, nothing in life is easy! If it was easy EVERY ONE would do it. But that's not the case. Never give up and always seek help if you're stuck. But never take the coward way out".

From my own pops mouth as far as I can remember. Suicide is no joke and I've meet people that were rich, poor, successful, not successful, take their lives. Even if they have the resources to seek help and it doesn't help them they'll still take their life because they don't have no purpose to live. No will to live






I agree. It really depends on the person though. Even if you're taking, pills, going to counseling, talking to your family and friends about your suicidal thoughts, that won't help everyone. It's sad but it's the truth. But I agree with you. I have friends who had it all, but decided to commit that if things don't go their way.

Your dad was a wise and strong man.

 

[Ski Mask]

Outside of kids and elderly parents, I don't know how can someone call suicide selfish. I mean, it can be flipped around and said that it's selfish to want people who don't want to be here to live so you can be happy.