Religion is a guide to a better life, this sky daddy magic thing is semantics because you clearly lived your life wrong. Its only common sense for your brain to reject what's it's been conditioned to reject.
You're clearly heavily biased as well
Aren't you former military?
How can you speak on brain washing?
You're also seriously ill at the moment
You're not even gonna use this time to reflect instead you double down with child like ignorance exactly like a cac would
What wickedness have you caused that has you this terrified of the after life my friend