the "I took her home and enjoyed that... she ain't even know that" is a metaphor for him enjoying the presence of a woman who took the time to be with him. But since he supposed to have a tough exterior, he couldn't display it...
... but deep down, he was all giddy and smitten that she spend quality time with him,
but she ain't even know it.
Thus, having to continue to mask his facade with this machismo laden, mafioso-swaggin personae.
Cacs have an interesting way of being so pessimistic and transitioning things into their own deceptive meaning.
Rape?
Get real. They were just mad because they didn't get raped by Rick Rosstein.
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