Bro, I understand you need people to vent to so you went to the coli.
Well, I'm not celibate or anything. I do get some p*ssy once every blue moon. It's the quality that has me worried, though. I'm basically delegated to working for sex with extremely sub par women - and that's fukked up. I mean, how would you feel about yourself if you actually had to court some 2 out of 10 just to get some sympathy sex? Decent women make won't even look in my direction.
I have friends so I guess I'm half way there
It's all good - I don't take it personal. You'd be surprised at how many people lash out on the internet because they relate to what you're saying and it makes them angry.They're proud of it, too. They type shyt like this and step away from their keyboards like "Yeah, fukk common decency"
Thanks for the advice, breh.
it's rough. I posted a thread on it before
Just hang out with them more man. Get those negative thoughts out of your head, smoke weed.I have friends so I guess I'm half way there
start by working out. register to a gym and start lifting. go to the gym 3 times a week. for now, keep smoking, keep eating the way you eat. doesn't matter for now. just go to the gym 3 times a week and lift. even if you don,t feel like lifting, once you get that into your routine and succeed at just going to the gym, build on that success. deep down you will know that you could achieve better by eating better and the motivation will come more naturally. same with smoking. don't try to change to much to fast breh.I've never been diagnosed or anything but I think I'm displaying all of the classic symptoms. I don't remember the last time I've went through a full day without feeling down at some point. I think it might have been sometime during my teenage years.I'm getting, so the obvious solution would be to hit the gym. I see people on their morning jogs and get jealous at how happy and healthy they look. Everyday, I imagine how much better my life would be if I looked in a mirror and saw a fit and attractive individual. I imagine myself working out and getting that endorphin rush every morning. But every time I try - I fail. It doesn't help that I smoke like a pack a day. In my mind, in order to start working out - I'll have to quit smoking. I'll also have to stop drinking coffee (at least three 16oz cups a day). My willpower is so weak that I just can't bring myself to do it. As soon as I quit, it seems like my job gets more stressful on purpose, and of course - the nicotine withdrawal symptoms get even more exaggerated. I've failed so many times that I'm honestly exhausted at this point. You bring yourself to go three months of being disciplined and then it all goes crashing down. After a few times of this, motivating yourself becomes next to impossible. You just think: "What the fukk is the point?" I no longer get looks from women and feel inadequate every time I go out. I never have a "good night". It's always a disappointment. I love my family to death but I find it a chore to be around them, and I don't know why. I feel the happiest when it's 2 a.m. in the morning and I'm holed up in my apartment by myself. I honestly think that if I didn't have to go to work then I would just sleep during the day and watch TV shows and smoke cigarettes at night. I get nothing out of being social. I've always been shy but now it's gotten to the point where I literally don't want to be around the people that I already know. My birthday is coming up and I don't want to celebrate...One of my best friends is telling me that he wants to get me bottle service at a club and I seriously asked him not to because I know that I'll have a shytty night, get no ass, and will be extra salty about it because it's my birthday. I also have a problem with crying - I can't do it. I wish that I could just let everything out and cry for like a good hour, but no matter what I do - it's not happening. It's like I'm numb to everything. Anyway brehs, thanks for letting me vent.
Post a pic of the the types of chicks that you get
No pics, but just imagine some fat, mid-thirties white trash that smells like newports and broken dreams.
http://www.thecoli.com/threads/if-youre-battling-depression-or-at-a-standstill-in-life.242284/I've never been diagnosed or anything but I think I'm displaying all of the classic symptoms. I don't remember the last time I've went through a full day without feeling down at some point. I think it might have been sometime during my teenage years.
