Nah, it's not that.
I know what you're saying, trust me.
I struggled with the breakup, greatly.
All those threads with "lists" that ya'll put together of what a woman has to be in order to be wifey, she destroyed
every single one of those lists.
She was pretty.
She was loyal.
She was smart.
She had a very strong relationship with her father.
She was
loyal (I list this twice because above all, she lived for me).
She had a fat ass and a small waist.
No kids.
No ex's (she'd only fukked I think 2 dudes before me).
No abortions.
She cooked.
She didn't club.
She didn't have any social media accts.
She cleaned (not as much as I'd like, but I'm kind of a mess too so it was

).
She was educated (she was an attorney).
Etc... etc... etc.. ad nauseum.
You name it, she had it. The only two knocks on her were that she was ok sitting around all weekend watching TV, and she didn't know how to budget.
I just met her too early in life and didn't get my 'adventurous phase' out of the way before spending 10 years together.
And now I know that if I were to spend another 10 years with her, I'd feel like I missed out on things.
Part of me is hoping she'll still be there when I'm done doing what I should have done in my 20's, but I know she won't.