lol we shoulda trade places…I feel I was born 2 decades early…this decadence woulda been ripe for my younger soul
it might’ve been out of sight but it definitely wasn’t out of mind
Oh I know but at this point when you at a cafe waiting for food and you glance at the TV and you see another random black person, abused, beat, killed shyt takes your appetite, ruins mood, all that. I know rn there's underage kids being traffic for all type of demonic activities, and it bothers me, but it doesn't have a palpable/visceral effect if I'm not SEEING the shyt. Like that poor black girl with those white demons in Palm Springs. Like the best part of me (that I compartmentalize) has so much sorrow, regret that she never had a chance off GP, AND rn nothing is being done/can be done legally since law enforcement/WS is complicit. If I had to see that weekly it'd fukk me up. It's honestly why I started reading news and stopped watching it.
As black man if you want to see Ls, suffering, prejudice, racism, etc. You can go outside and find it within 30 mins of where you are right now if not 15, but on top of that all the media/visual......
I seriously think of more and more being a recluse in as I age because in sobriety I really don't enjoy most people, or life in general, I just
deal with both as necessary.
As for the first part I'm comfortable saying sex is largely overrated. In theory it'd be awesome, with the girls that are your physical ideal, at times your horniest, and with little to no effort, but 85% are going to have to compromise on at least one of those 3.
Idk maybe I'm just a miserable fukk
