King_Kamala61
:mjlit: A Fat Black Nasty MFer :mjlit:
I'm honestly scared to take a break. I know it's crazy to say out loud...but I have an irrational fear..I gotta stay working man.
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King_Kamala61
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Idk...the red face Lipstick man makes me horny
I fukk demons breh
Rev Leon Lonnie Love
damned mine eyes, DAMNED mine eyes!!
I understand how you feel, I'm like that too most of the time. It took situations that forced me to take a break for me to appreciate how helpful learning to "switch off" can be for your mental health. Give it time, you will figure out how to get over that fear,
King_Kamala61
:mjlit: A Fat Black Nasty MFer :mjlit:
I'm only on coli cause I'm waiting for the spray paint to dry.
I had a dope ass bachelor pad..70inch tv...ps4 and fully furnished. I threw all my furniture away except my couch. I feel like I wasted money...and I have 0 space. My entire apartment reeks of paints. I can't fukking escape from this place. I even got art stored in my bedroom.
Last night to help me sleep I watched Picasso create art on old films and docs. I'm honestly tired man. I know yall doing jokes to cheer me up but I'm stressing man. I had a nightmare where I went crazy from painting. I feel cursed.
Rev Leon Lonnie Love
damned mine eyes, DAMNED mine eyes!!
Sounds like you are using art as an escape, maybe the fear of stopping means you gotta face some of the things you are escaping from? If so then I get it. Usually someone needs external help to get over such a hurdle. I have no experience with therapists and other mental health professionals but maybe visiting one might make a difference so you can get a space to vent and address those internal fears.
King_Kamala61
:mjlit: A Fat Black Nasty MFer :mjlit:
Naw man....I wanna paint...I just feel like every piece I do gets me closer to art world domination. It's just feels like something us driving me. A little voice that won't stfu and leave me alone. I don't sleep much but I be up creating.
Rev Leon Lonnie Love
damned mine eyes, DAMNED mine eyes!!
....just look out for your health in the process man. You can't get there if your body is broken down by too many restless days and sleepless nights. So consider a break as part of the formular to get to the top! Goodluck
King_Kamala61
:mjlit: A Fat Black Nasty MFer :mjlit:
....just look out for your health in the process man. You can't get there if your body is broken down by too many restless days and sleepless nights. So consider a break as part of the formular to get to the top! Goodluck
I built 16 panels last sept/October and only got 14 left. I'm tryna get 50 pieces done by Jan 1st 2024 so I can do atleast 3 shows next year.
This piece is posed to be a comic book like portrait of Alvin Kamara. I don't know where I wanna take it. I done built up the background and still not happy. I'm burning out man....
I may take a break after I'm done with the next 4 pieces. Cause when I re up I gotta build the 72x96s panels.
damn breh so you just not gonna take none of the suggestions people are saying? just get a stripper bytch and paint on her booty cheeks then. she gon send you on a mission like its uncut gems hopefully with a better ending.
King_Kamala61
:mjlit: A Fat Black Nasty MFer :mjlit:
That's the problem. This shyt is compulsive. I already started painting on the walls
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I built 16 panels last sept/October and only got 14 left. I'm tryna get 50 pieces done by Jan 1st 2024 so I can do atleast 3 shows next year.
This piece is posed to be a comic book like portrait of Alvin Kamara. I don't know where I wanna take it. I done built up the background and still not happy. I'm burning out man....
I may take a break after I'm done with the next 4 pieces. Cause when I re up I gotta build the 72x96s panels.
seems like you got a bankroll problem. All creating and not selling.
Its irresponsible of you to be spending all of your drug money on arts and crafts supplies, at some point you're going to have to start taking some personal accountability and work out a proper budget so you're not constantly running out of drugs.
In the interim I suppose you could start putting some of your paints in paper bags and huffing but it sounds like it's time for you to grow up and resist these childish behaviors that are leaving you drugless.
In the interim I suppose you could start putting some of your paints in paper bags and huffing but it sounds like it's time for you to grow up and resist these childish behaviors that are leaving you drugless.
Start huffing your leftover paint the hallucinations will add to your creativity.