LightSkinYeshua
All Star
So I'm in this program where there's only like 3 black people in there. I been feeling this girl (J) for a year but I was in a relationship that should've been ended but idk I kept it going. I'm officially single now and I made the move and pulled J last week after I sweet talked her lol.
She was down to smash and invited me over but when i got there shorty just wanted to watch Netflix smh. I went home and beat the meat questioning why tf i wasted uber money for that.
I sweet-talk her again and she invites me over the next night. I asked her what she wanted in this and she says she doesn't know. I tell her the same thing especially since I'm coming out of a relationship a few weeks prior. Anyways, long story short I talked my way into some coochie.
I smashed and slept over at her place. We texted for a little but honestly, I kinda felt that our chemistry was lacking. The next time I smashed J was Friday night. I think I just cant have sex with just anyone, I need some deep connection. I could not nut at all.
Here is the fukk up
I had a party at my place and I'm lit. There's this white girl who just got to the program. I ain't gonna lie we had some tension going on and one thing led to another. We are making out throughout the night and she on some freaky shyt smh. J comes to the party and is sitting in the living room. I go use the bathroom and white girl comes in.
I honestly didn't do anything but me and white girl talked about why that wasn't probably a good idea. We definitely could have done that not in the bathroom but drunk me aint thinking. We were in the for a long time and when I came out J was gone. Blocked me on every social media. Nobody really knows about me and J but J comes out with my friend group from time to time. I don't think that will be happening anymore and Im definitely not invited to anything she will be throwing/going to.
Im ashamed of what I have become.
I should've stopped J and I situation as soon as I realized we probably wont work and Im not looking for a relationship. Now a friend group is broken.
Yall got any stories?
She was down to smash and invited me over but when i got there shorty just wanted to watch Netflix smh. I went home and beat the meat questioning why tf i wasted uber money for that.
I sweet-talk her again and she invites me over the next night. I asked her what she wanted in this and she says she doesn't know. I tell her the same thing especially since I'm coming out of a relationship a few weeks prior. Anyways, long story short I talked my way into some coochie.
I smashed and slept over at her place. We texted for a little but honestly, I kinda felt that our chemistry was lacking. The next time I smashed J was Friday night. I think I just cant have sex with just anyone, I need some deep connection. I could not nut at all.
Here is the fukk up
I had a party at my place and I'm lit. There's this white girl who just got to the program. I ain't gonna lie we had some tension going on and one thing led to another. We are making out throughout the night and she on some freaky shyt smh. J comes to the party and is sitting in the living room. I go use the bathroom and white girl comes in.
I honestly didn't do anything but me and white girl talked about why that wasn't probably a good idea. We definitely could have done that not in the bathroom but drunk me aint thinking. We were in the for a long time and when I came out J was gone. Blocked me on every social media. Nobody really knows about me and J but J comes out with my friend group from time to time. I don't think that will be happening anymore and Im definitely not invited to anything she will be throwing/going to.
Im ashamed of what I have become.
I should've stopped J and I situation as soon as I realized we probably wont work and Im not looking for a relationship. Now a friend group is broken.
Yall got any stories?
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