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Im actually suprise no one has trapped you yet. Babies would be cute as heck

And the average person won't either. Be realistic. How many of that 7 billion figure is within OP's dating range? There are many factors at play.
Maybe he's rejecting the women who want him
 

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Just to be happy, healthy, and prosperous and to be able to afford the better things in life. I never had a real chance to have a real relationship. Or build with anyone. I've always been alone for the most part. To myself.

My birthday was last week and now I just feel down in the dumps. Useless. Depressed. No woman would ever see any value in me outside of looks and that's what I've accepted. In the eyes of most I'm a failure. But I never had a legitimate chance to succeed and even when I busted my ass to get to the point of success I wanted in my life, I have nothing to show for it. I'm just not meant for this superficial society. At all.

:what:

If you're employed, you have a chance to succeed. Whether or not you capitalize on that is on you
 

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There are worse things OP.

I'm feeling that way too but probably for a whole nother reason than you.

What I am in the middle off...is truly accepting that and truly committing myself to improvement...ALOTTA Mahfukkas talk that "ima be alone and work on myself" shyt but few can execute it especially in the long run...myself included.

If you are gonna be alone at least for a extended period of time...a year to two to three years...use it to do what you wanna do and be the best you.

But like I said there are worse fates.
I've pretty much only have had one sort of relationship that lasted 4 months. It was a fling really. I never knew or know what an actual relationship feels like. SO I just avoid getting into it with women period. Maybe a one night stand or two...but nothing more.

I'm African & West Indian in a country that's for whites man. This shyt isn't built for peopel like me to prosper and be happy. Alright! What woman wants an African last name? What woman wants to build with me? Alright...what woman even sees me as marriage or relationship material!? I don't fit in this country.

I grew up as one of the only black families in an predominantly white affluent neighborhood. I grew up getting called everything from a c00n to a uncle tom to a white boy to an oreo and wasn't even seen as black in the eyes of most blakc people then I had to deal with white people's goddamn racism in Pittsburgh. I left there after college to have more opportunities available for me here in NYC cause over there there is NOTHING! Alright. I have an older sister who graduated college in 2004 and hasn't had a job in years and lives at home with my family. If I didn't move to NYC, I'd be broke, jobless, and living at fukking home in my 30s.

This is what I'm saying about this society isn't meant for a black man like me to prosper...just survive. Very few people legitimately want to support me or give me a chance so I had to take mad opportunities for myself to try to atleast survive and be happy.

I'm so fukking done with this shyt....I wake up feeling miserable and sometimes wish I was never born.
 

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Im not in school and not sure where to meet folks. Unwilling to lower my expectations. Biological clock is ticking. Im most likely gonna be alone.
 

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:what:

If you're employed, you have a chance to succeed. Whether or not you capitalize on that is on you
I technically work for myself. I have no job or employer. To me that shyt (and a salary) is a luxury.

Everyone sees my african ass name on my resume and stop right there. I've been denied more opportunities for employment than you can shake a stick at. Be happy you got some fukking anglo ass name and employers will give you a shot. I stopped trying to do the job hunt thing cause I was sick and fukking tired of being discriminated against. repeatedly. I was fukking homeless last year for 8 goddamn months you don't fukking know my struggle. I was sleeping in my goddamn car. Gettting denied jobs and housing. Having to use a Burger King bathroom to change into a suit for interviews on wall street. Having to find oddjobs from Craigslist to make money to find rooms and I would get denied even when I had the money.

No one wants to see me succeed other than me at this point.
 

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I technically work for myself. I have no job or employer. To me that shyt (and a salary) is a luxury.

Everyone sees my african ass name on my resume and stop right there. I've been denied more opportunities for employment than you can shake a stick at. Be happy you got some fukking anglo ass name and employers will give you a shot. I stopped trying to do the job hunt thing cause I was sick and fukking tired of being discriminated against. repeatedly. I was fukking homeless last year for 8 goddamn months you don't fukking know my struggle.
Network with other young black professionals. What kinda work do you do?
 

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Realign your thinking, dead the pessimism and truly envisage and take actions to your varied desires/ambitions.
Simple short term fix, join a gym/play some sports, you'll build some self esteem (as you look and feel better) in addition it'll take your mind of things. Stay off the internet/social media if that's causing you distress. Think yourself better and act on it. You already feel like at your lowest ebb right? Well the good news is the only way is up, just gotta take some initiative...
 

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I came to the conclusion long ago

1... I will never have kids... I'm getting too old and the expenses for children is ridiculous

2.. I will never come across any real friends like I had in college and now everyone lives in a different state...so I roll solo and I'm kind of glad because I don't have to worried about they asking me for money

3... That work and vacation to different places is my life

4.... That u can't even trust your own in 2016/17.... So many of us are out here looking to screw another brother and sister over
 

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I technically work for myself. I have no job or employer. To me that shyt (and a salary) is a luxury.

Everyone sees my african ass name on my resume and stop right there. I've been denied more opportunities for employment than you can shake a stick at. Be happy you got some fukking anglo ass name and employers will give you a shot. I stopped trying to do the job hunt thing cause I was sick and fukking tired of being discriminated against. repeatedly. I was fukking homeless last year for 8 goddamn months you don't fukking know my struggle. I was sleeping in my goddamn car. Gettting denied jobs and housing. Having to use a Burger King bathroom to change into a suit for interviews on wall street. Having to find oddjobs from Craigslist to make money to find rooms and I would get denied even when I had the money.

No one wants to see me succeed other than me at this point.

Excuses.
If you were able to get an interview on wall st then its clearly not your name holding you back. It's you
 

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Network with other young black professionals. What kinda work do you do?
Technically on my resume I have everything. I've managed retail, I'm a registered insurance broker with the state of NY (I stopped doing that cause I made no progress....everytime I would contact clients they would hear my name and it would never get past the phone call stage), I worked for the SPLC briefly, I've done three radio shows for three college radio stations, was the assistant director of a community art fund, I've done damn near everything but I'e never had a job for longer than 6 months. But have had almost 20 jobs. Just for survival.

I don't do anything at this point but live off of sales I make online. Even trying to do the traditional job search depresses me. I feel I've already been told that even with my extensive accomplishments, I just have absolutely no value in this society.
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Excuses.
If you were able to get an interview on wall st then its clearly not your name holding you back. It's you
Breh, I'm just pissed off and frustrated at this goddamn shyt country anymore. Seriously. I don't even want to work with people that don't want to work with me!

I don't even see a future for myself anywhere here.
:wow:
 

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c'mon man... either accept it and hold it down, or change it. what's posting this depressing ass shyt online gonna do?

a song for your troubles

I post this cause I can't talk to anyone in real life about my troubles and this is the only place I know I can vent about my frustrations that being black, african, and west indian in America to other black people and not feel fukking alone.

Like other than my family and friends, I really don't even fukk with people like that cause they obviously don't want to fukk with me.
 

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There's no one out here who's goals align with mine 100%. I'm pretty much on my own. No one has my back. I'll never have a serious relationship again or get married or have kids. I don't see it happening. I don't want one either. this society isn't meant for someone like me to flourish...just maintain and survive. That's it.:yeshrug:I've accepted it.

This is pretty much where i'm at...except, I don't think it was "meant" or anything metaphysical like that.

This is the way i've chosen, I kinda like it.
 
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