more details on those eye opening moments?
Okay....just got back from skateboarding at Knickerbocker Park...
From the beginning of my college career to the end, I just went through so much bullshyt. So, I'm just gonna put it in bullet points. Just some examples...too many to name
2003...had my n!kka wake-up call. Literally. Went to a party off campus and was trying to find the house my friends were at. Thought it was at this one up this hill. This was in Marietta, OH. I look at the house see some people drinking...one redneck ass white boy literally yells out the window at me (I guess cause they saw looking outside) and says "who the fukk is that n*gger looking in here? F*ck that n*gger!" as loud as he could. I just left. Shyt literally ruined my night.
2004. Got arrested for stealing a pack of Kool-Aid from a grocery store. Was the only black person in there. Two white clerks accosted me, took me upstairs, searched me, got arrested, went to court, only black person there. While tons of white people with more sever charges got off with fines, I got 3 months of probation. Saw how the legal system fukks over black people in this country.
2004. The only job I could find after leaving college was at McDonalds....no one else in Pittsburgh would hire me. Was treated like garbage. Came up in an affluent predominantly white neighboood...was wondering why I couldn't get hired in my own neighborhood.
2005. This was where I really had that eye opening moment...I was trying to find work and I got hired selling speakers out of a white van. THis made me really realize that white privilege was very real. I'd have to try to sell these speakers to (mostly) white people and they thought it was stolen, told me they didn't want hot merchandise, using the same pitch my co-workers were using (I was the only black guy there)....and when they did it, they would have endless people buying them. I finally made a sale and the person I was driving with ( a white guy) literally took the cash out of my hand.
And more bullshyt that happened from 2006-2012.
To be honest, I'm just drained and I don't feel like discussing this right now. Maybe another time, reiterating all of these experiences reminds me of why I fukking hate people.