I love him but hes
different. Glad hes still here and hes an elderly man now. However, im disappointed with him because he could have done more but chose not to. Ill just say that who he is and has always most definitely affected our father and son relationship where we arent close and dont think we ever will be. For one, i dont know if hes being honest about who he is or his past. I have father issues unfortunately due to this. Even now, who he is is getting in the way of things he should have handled. I strive not to be like him at all.

dont know what his issue is but its looking like narcissistic personality disorder, antisocial personality or some cluster b personality disorder going on. I feel like hes ready to do his antics anytime im around him so im very weary of him on some "eyes in the back of my head" shyt. If thats it, i dont wish that shyt on anybody because i see how it fukked him up. Dont neglect your mental health. That most definitely is important. I seen some shyt from him that i cant unsee that has made me really think like mental illness is no joke. I think i missed my calling to do psychology.