Do u urself or do u know anyone who suffers from depression

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I do.

Symptoms are different for everybody though so it wouldn't be a wise idea to use another persons experience with it and identify it with your own. Depression is a thing that lingers for months and years. There's a difference between feeling down for a moment or because you lost your job and being depressed


For me,

-constant negativity or self doubt (always looking for the bad or thinking about the worst.) This could be seen as complaining. I've had family members and people ask me is there anything I like or say I'm too negative
-body aches for no physical reason
-irritation or annoyance for no reason
-lack of excitement constantly
-loss of interest to do anything or not interested in doing things that Im passionate about
-feeling empty constantly like feeling like life is meaningless or there's no reason to live
-feeling emotionally numb
-feeling sad constantly
-feeling angry constantly
-feeling exhausted or tired, constant need to sleep
-slow and delayed motor movement like moving in slow motion without realizing it
-the need for constant isolation
-wanting to cry or break down where my eyes get watery or I can feel it from within but being unable to

I have anxiety too so that doesn't help. I don't go through cry spells and I haven't acted out on any suicidal ideations or have them regularly. I managed to fight those thoughts though I'll admit it lingers. It's hell basically and the best way I manage is usually by sleeping and self isolation because staying awake feels like total hell. My shyt triggers randomly but I do a good job of hiding it. It's an extra burden in my life and it just makes me envious of other people who I see are fortunate enough not to experience it.
 
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I do.

Symptoms are different for everybody though so it wouldn't be a wise idea to use another persons experience with it and identify it with your own. Depression is a thing that lingers for months and years. There's a difference between feeling down for a moment or because you lost your job and being depressed


For me,

-constant negativity or self doubt (always looking for the bad or thinking about the worst)
-body aches for no physical reason
-irritation or annoyance for no reason
-lack of excitement constantly
-loss of interest to do anything or not interested in doing things that Im passionate about
-feeling empty constantly like feeling like life is meaningless or there's no reason to live
-feeling emotionally numb
-feeling sad constantly
-feeling angry constantly
-feeling exhausted or tired, constant need to sleep
-slow and delayed motor movement like moving in slow motion without realizing it
-the need for constant isolation
-wanting to cry or break down where my eyes get watery or I can feel it from within but being unable to

I have anxiety too so that doesn't help.

Do you know someone with these symptoms, OP?
 

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I do.

Symptoms are different for everybody though so it wouldn't be a wise idea to use another persons experience with it and identify it with your own. Depression is a thing that lingers for months and years. There's a difference between feeling down for a moment or because you lost your job and being depressed


For me,

-constant negativity or self doubt (always looking for the bad or thinking about the worst.) This could be seen as complaining. I've had family members and people ask me is there anything I like or say I'm too negative
-body aches for no physical reason
-irritation or annoyance for no reason
-lack of excitement constantly
-loss of interest to do anything or not interested in doing things that Im passionate about
-feeling empty constantly like feeling like life is meaningless or there's no reason to live
-feeling emotionally numb
-feeling sad constantly
-feeling angry constantly
-feeling exhausted or tired, constant need to sleep
-slow and delayed motor movement like moving in slow motion without realizing it
-the need for constant isolation
-wanting to cry or break down where my eyes get watery or I can feel it from within but being unable to

I have anxiety too so that doesn't help. I don't go through cry spells and I haven't acted out on any suicidal ideations or have them regularly. I managed to fight those thoughts though I'll admit it lingers. It's hell basically and the best way I manage is usually by sleeping and self isolation. My shyt triggers randomly but I do a good job of hiding it.

Hiding it is common in our communities. Until it overwhelms you to the point you fukkin explode. Hope you're able to talk to somebody about it before it gets to that point, breh.
 

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You talking about clinically depressed or just unhappy with life?

If it's the former, I probably know one or two. If it's the latter, shyt half the people I know are unhappy with life.
 

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Yeah, me and my girlfriend were both hot with clinical depression. We deal with it differently though.
 

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Hiding it is common in our communities. Until it overwhelms you to the point you fukkin explode. Hope you're able to talk to somebody about it before it gets to that point, breh.


Too late. I have a therapist but honestly, I'm in it by myself. I do not have support or anybody around me that understands what im dealing with or gets it. Plus with other preexisting issues. I'm already someone who basically has to put on an act. I have to pretend like I'm okay in front of others just to be able to get by and dealing with people because no one cares. I'm already jaded and am not fond of people or socializing except with a few people depending on my mood.

But yeah, I don't care anymore and just go on with life like whatever. I'm managing so :yeshrug:


I am afraid of exploding though and potentially hurting myself or other people. At times, I'm actually worried that I may be overwhelmed with that shyt and end up killing myself. It's like the urge to kill myself is there when it seems readily accessible though it's not intense but I tell myself that I have a future. It would be real easy to kill myself at my job if I wanted to. Just get over the ledge and free fall on some I believe I can fly shyt. :russ: that or to fall asleep in my car with the windows up and the engine on. Knowing that, I try to use restraint and preventive measures since the thoughts and feelings are there though not intense.
 
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Yea, I do. I just take it day by day, breh.
Depression mixed anxiety is bad. The anxiety brings on constant worrying while the depression just brings you down (in my case).
 
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