Do u urself or do u know anyone who suffers from depression

[JayYoung713]

I have depression and anxiety issues as well. Getting professional help was literally the best thing I could have done along with love from my wife and kids. It's still ongoing and will probably be a part of my everyday life but me today vs. me late 2015 is night and day. I still have insomnia issues, think about death a lot, find myself feeling sad out of nowhere, and have trouble keeping interest in a lot of shyt, but can deal with these things much better now. Also, working out has helped me a lot for me that feeling after going hard in the gym is addicting mane it's nothing like it I swear it's up there with busting a nut ( square business) . I stopped taking that medicine I was prescribed a long time ago, that shyt didn't do much but have me high as hell on some zombie shyt. fukk that! I'll fight this shyt sober.

 

[JayYoung713]

Too late. I have a therapist but honestly, I'm in it by myself. I do not have support or anybody around me that understands what im dealing with or gets it. Plus with other preexisting issues. I'm already someone who basically has to put on an act. I have to pretend like I'm okay in front of others just to be able to get by and dealing with people because no one cares. I'm already jaded and am not fond of people or socializing except with a few people depending on my mood.

But yeah, I don't care anymore and just go on with life like whatever. I'm managing so


I am afraid of exploding though and potentially hurting myself or other people. At times, I'm actually worried that I may be overwhelmed with that shyt and end up killing myself. It's like the urge to kill myself is there when it seems readily accessible though it's not intense but I tell myself that I have a future. It would be real easy to kill myself at my job if I wanted to. Just get over the ledge and free fall on some I believe I can fly shyt. that or to fall asleep in my car with the windows up and the engine on. Knowing that, I try to use restraint and preventive measures since the thoughts and feelings are there though not intense.

@ the bolded was me bro and one day after being under a ton of stress I exploded. Literally right then and there my wife took me to the hospital. If she had not been there I would've hurt myself I'm 100% sure of it. One thing therapy taught me was NOT to keep feelings pent up inside bro you gotta let that shyt out. Not sure if you're religious or not but prayers to you anyway bro I know exactly what you're talking about. Find an outlet of some sort and decompress.

 

[StickStickly]

A lot of people won’t complain about feeling sad. But they will say they are tired, achey, or always bored. Sometimes they will eat less or more than usual and drink a lot to loosen up. Sometimes they will miss work a lot or work is their only social outlet. Those are clues something is wrong