Trust me, I know I'm no where close to understanding all the intricacies of it, and I'm coming up on 2 years.
My girlfriend has 14 years sobriety, and is actually starting to question the whole disease model for a few reasons.
As I said, I still feel that it is. Trying my best not to be offended by people in here claiming it isn't when they are not afflicted with it.
Devils advocate though: online shopping, anorexia, other compulsions can be addictive. Would you call that a disease?
For me, addiction = obsession and compulsion leading to spiritual, mental, and physical decay. Obsession = that fixed idea taking me back to that ease I once knew. Compulsion = the physical actions of continuing to act on obsession despite consequences. Disease = "dis and ease". Drugs fit that description.
So I'm not using drugs, but I can obsess and act out on those obsessions in ways that will land me in jail, hospitals, or homeless clean. But I accept who I am, identify with other recovering addicts, so I accept the solution, otherwise, the old attitudes and behavior pop up, and who knows what's next.
But I don't talk about my feelings, emotions, and thoughts too too many people outside of recovery. With family and regular friends it's more surface and we hang once in a blue. Otherwise i'll be confused again, end up homeless or in hospital, and none of those motherfukkers will visit me. lol.
Anything that will have me suffer then die is a disease to me. Thinking I was cured at 3 years clean, then relapsing for a few years, was a huge mistake. God willing never again, a day at a time.



