in the past i actually would go out of my way to talk to random people (in fact i still would but i have no time for pointless socializing now

), but as i grew older i realized some people are just fukking a$$holes and will shyt on you for being different or not fitting their mold/ideal
Anti-social or asocial?
Asocial refers to indifference to or a separation from society. An asocial person is able to socialize well if they choose to, but doesn't do so often simply out of lack of interest. It's common for introverts to be asocial.
Antisocial is asociality to the extreme and is related to mental and personality disorders. An antisocial person lacks empathy or regard for the concerns or safety of others, and may actually be hostile towards society.

oh shyt i got this mixed, i'm definitely asocial. i like to socialize but if i'm not feeling the group or environment i'm in i just tune off
Agree a lot. Sad thing is people who are loners like I am try to open up and end up having recurring bad experiences that cause them to shut down again. It becomes a never-ending circle. I know that for me part of it too are the unrealistic expectations I have about people and situations.
this also true for me, everytime i try to be nice or open i end up becoming more spiteful. like son how you gone dog me for trying to open up and be inviting
You developed this trait, most likely because you are socially awkard, so people rejected you. Over time,you just became very angry, depressed,and withdrawn.
this is what most likely happen to me
but fukk it i just charge it to the game and keep it moving, no point wasting my time like this.

shyt might also explain why i have this fukk you attitude and leave me alone/go away face