Bernie Madoff
Banned
Go take ya medicine and lay down b.. you too old to be acting like this..
Do you consider yourself anti-social?
- Thread starter *L*E*G*A*C*Y*
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*L*E*G*A*C*Y*
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fukk off and stop quoting me. I swear to god if I saw you in real life I'd fukking put you in goddamn coma. Even your posts make me wanna crack your fukking skull with a baseball bat.
fukk you.
I thought I was mentally unstable but damn
Iv'e seen way to many times...
...That people who were EXTREMELY talkative when younger, then get bullied at one point of rejected from friend groups, turn "anti-social" (really asocial).
...Now they hide behind excuses like "oh i hate people" and stuff like that to justify their shyness....They really just scared of rejection.
...Seen this happen to SO many people from 1st grade through 12th.
...A lot of those people turned to drugs or/and became depressed at one point too....
...Being isolated and not interacting w/ people in real life can cause that.
...That people who were EXTREMELY talkative when younger, then get bullied at one point of rejected from friend groups, turn "anti-social" (really asocial).
...Now they hide behind excuses like "oh i hate people" and stuff like that to justify their shyness....They really just scared of rejection.
...Seen this happen to SO many people from 1st grade through 12th.
...A lot of those people turned to drugs or/and became depressed at one point too....
...Being isolated and not interacting w/ people in real life can cause that.
*L*E*G*A*C*Y*
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I thought I was mentally unstable but damn
Alright. I already told this board I have a short fuse....and have been dealing with depression (and as a side dish...anger problems) for almost a decade. People like to egg me on and just make fun of me for it...they like to fukk with me and push me around...ofcourse I'm gonna push back cause I've dealt with people like that all my life.
I don't feel like making apologies for douce bags being douchebags....that know nothing about my life and draw conclusions. If I was that mentally unstable...how did I manage to make it this far and have the job I currently have now? No...I'd be homeless, on the streets, yelling gibberish, and fishing through dumpsters.
I'm sick of this board now..im sick of dumb as Joe sixpacks that watch the game every Sunday who conform to all of society's rules pushing their damn judgements and unfounded assertions about me without even getting a chance to know me.
I'm done here...This is why I don't really mess with people...alright...I'm not one of "you" and I don't have to be.
This is why I'd rather be alone...cause other people aren't worth the headache.
*logs off*
Bernie Madoff
Banned
*L*E*G*A*C*Y*
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That happened to me in college.
A lot of it was due to racism and being one of the few black people in a predominantly white institution.
The kicker was when I got jumped by five people on a way to a college party in 2007.
And my friend at the time....Instead of helping me...ran away scared and nearly left me to die.
That's what really did it man. I seriously hate people...especially when it comes to people who have been doing better than me not even offering a helping hand. I've been alone and it's just led to a lot of resentment and hostility that I'm still trying to get over.
Like I can be happy...but that never lasts long...it takes everything in my whole entire being not to be miserable.
Bernie Madoff
Banned
Have you ever thought of maybe refraining from online discussion boards? Doesn't seem very healthy for you.
*L*E*G*A*C*Y*
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Like that's the thing...I don't even consider myself shy. I've actually been told I'm funny, got a great personality, and all of this glowing stuff...but honestly just seeing how people are just limits me from putting myself out there. It's hurt the most with women....to the point I don't even try to pick up on women or talk to them even if I'm feeling them or they're feeling me. I just have had to deal with way to many people that just gave me the cold shoulder.
Thankfully I'm in a place and a city now where I can be more of myself. Hopefully once I start making money and can be more comfortable and actually have a real routine I can let my hair down and not feel so uncomfortable around people cause I'm broke, don't have anything etc...
Thankfully I'm in a place and a city now where I can be more of myself. Hopefully once I start making money and can be more comfortable and actually have a real routine I can let my hair down and not feel so uncomfortable around people cause I'm broke, don't have anything etc...
Well shyt, sorry to hear that experience and if i hit a nerve.
You try therapy?
...And yeah, i can only imagine if you hate all white people (64% of the country) and believ they are all out to get ya...that can lead to severe paranoia and depression/loneliness.
Good luck breh.
*L*E*G*A*C*Y*
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I've been thinking about that....I don't get much joy out of these boards anymore...but it's such a time killer and good for when I'm bored.
But reading about all of these police killings and negative news...it just makes me angry more so than relieved.
Maybe If I had a girlfriend or was more social then I feel like I wouldn't be on these boards so much...it's like I want to talk to people but I never like to do it in real life...or just cant. I really don't have that many people in my life other than friends and family...and that constant feeling of being alone sucks.
It's gonna a lot for me to take a break from these boards...but yeah...maybe I should just stop. I just hate bottling up thoughts and opinions and emotions and having no one to talk to for the bulk of the day.
*L*E*G*A*C*Y*
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Well shyt, sorry to hear that experience and if i hit a nerve.
You try therapy?
...And yeah, i can only imagine if you hate all white people (64% of the country) and believ they are all out to get ya...that can lead to severe paranoia and depression/loneliness.
Good luck breh.
I don't have the money for therapy at the moment. I just exercise (skateboard) and make music/listen to music. A lot of what I've been listening to is like really ambient calm like deep house and downtempo. I don't really listen to that much hip hop anymore cause I've been trying to quell that angry side that I hate when it comes out...like this thread. I hate the fact that due to my condition it makes me like this...but I try to help myself...and help others...but yeah.
Since I've taken this medication for depression and anxiety...it's helped. Maybe that's the next step. It seems everybody is happy on here. I don't need to bring down any body's mood with my negativity. I've been trying to embrace more positive energy and whatnot and be more positive. I'm trying to put all the bs in the past.
Brandeezy
Superstar
Idk what I am. I don't fukk with most ppl though but that's basically because they fukked me over a lot. I just go to work and go home. I don't go to parties, clubs, bars, events etc. Never had a love life and probably never will but it is what it is. Plus side is that the only ppl who call me is parents or my boss
i'm not anti social,i'm just anti humanoid,and humanoids don't know how to be social anymore unless there's an ulterior motive..
additionally,more humanoids my age or younger are just insufferable bores,ol know it all but never been through shyt ass chumps,or they been through it all but it fukked them up when it comes to communicating savages..
to be fair nothing is that intrinsically interesting to me anymore,even enlightenment comes at a price these dayze,oh to be innocent in my ignorance again..
additionally,more humanoids my age or younger are just insufferable bores,ol know it all but never been through shyt ass chumps,or they been through it all but it fukked them up when it comes to communicating savages..
to be fair nothing is that intrinsically interesting to me anymore,even enlightenment comes at a price these dayze,oh to be innocent in my ignorance again..