Yes and no.
Yes as in I'm used to not having anybody and being single. Growing up and being a first generation African/West Indian in predominantly white Pittsburgh it was hard for me and my siblings to meet people of the opposite sex and have relationships. This resulted in me festering for a period and being a weird loner that was kind of angry with the world for feeling like an outcast with nobody to relate to. And to be honest it hurt me with women because I just didn't know how to talk to them cause I didn't trust them like anybody else and I thought they could never see me for me (and that's what I want). Even in college with so many people around, I struggled with women and kept to myself. To the point where it's been like...F*ck it...I'm happier alone.. Been single and haven't been in a relationship for 29 years of my adult life and I'll be 30 in August.
No as in, I just want someone to share my life with and to not sleep alone all the time. Being single sucks in that aspect. I just tend to walk around thinking sometimes that there's no one for me. Maybe this is why I'm this weird guy who seems sensitive and caring but just kind of rough and wounded on the surface.
I'm not afraid to say I'm not considerate of other people's feelings and take solace being in my own world.
In which ways...I don't care. I don't see myself having another girlfriend or being in a relationship or getting married.
