I agree, I went to a different high school, then my neighborhood/middle school, but these kids we all grew up together, our fam was close, same blocks, same streets, friends since third grade...it wasn't the same when hs started, but we all had to go our own way, but the way it went just doesn't sit right with me. I feel like I lost pieces of ME with those friendships...
I had to realize to, at a certain point, that it wasn't what I was doing, cuz no matter what it was, working, going to college, no matter how much paper or whatever I had, it didn't matter..it wasn't about me, it was that those people weren't cut from the same cloth I was. I thought 'oh if I just get a good job', 'oh if I stop drinking and smoking', 'oh if I finish college'....we'll be cool again....nah.  The saddest part is theres no beef, no animosity, but the hardest shyt to face was that you felt close to people, who didn't give a fukk anymore.  Hurts me still, I have daydreams and ill memories about all the friends and family from back whenever, that aren't around anymore, and I'll wake up, like fukk.