Does Death Ever Trip You Out?

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I'm scared brehs :sadcam:

Have I done enough to be amongst the good samaritans in paradise or is my abode to be those of demonic beings :damn:

A breh of mine almost passed away in front of my eyes too a few days back, that shyt affected me :wow:
 

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I would rather hear the opinions about death from people 65 and older, I would like to hear their mentality, what they think.
 

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I would rather hear the opinions about death from people 65 and older, I would like to hear their mentality, what they think.
I agree. It's easy to but it behind you and not think about it while your whole life is ahead of you. That's how I am. But I'm sure you thoughts change a bit as you age and get closer to dying. And after living a whole life on this earth, seeing all the evil shyt humans are capable of, I'm sure some welcome it. Anyway, I'm enjoying myself here,I may not have the life I want at the moment, but I'm happy and healthy, that's all I asked for.
 
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Before my son was born, I can honestly say, I was oblivious to the fear of death.Just totally aloof about it.

Now I have somewhat of a anxiety about my own perseverance.I know I need enough time to build him into a soldier before I get out of here.NOBODY understands my son more than me.We have a psychic connection that's on some otherworldly/alien/telepathic shyt.Some times, he'll come up to me and go "Daddy, I know what you're thinking right now" and tell me exactly what I was thinking:wow:


Just having something that precious, in your hand, to mold.....It's some heavy shyt, breh:to:.At times, it makes me start to examine my own mortality.I wanna at least be around until he's 30 and has a family of his own.Anything beyond that is gravy.


So I guess you could say that is my biggest fear/anxiety.Being taken away from him while he's still a pup.I don't dwell on it, but that shyt does visit my cranium for a brief second or two from time to time.
 

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i think about it daily, man i seen my pops go thru so much in 3-4 months, going from a being perfectly healthily to his death bed, and i sat wit him while he took his last breaths and held his hand, and just to feel his body go from warm to freezing cold is a moment i will never forget in my life

i lost my mom in 2011, i wasnt living in the same city, but i felt it hard, but it was nothin like seeing my pops( the strongest man i knew) fall so fast, dude is 51 and had turned his life around and was like my best friend at that point

as he was getting more sick i could see the fear in his eyes, and how afraid he was of what was coming, he knew me well and knew i didnt believe in a god or afterlife and i remember him crying one night while i sat up wit him and begging to rethink my feelings on it

shyt still doesnt seem real to me at all, every day i damn near waking up thinking bout dude

Just curious, why did your dad want you to rethink your feelings on god and the afterlife? What did he hope that would accomplish?
 

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I rarely post about my personal life on here, but I know the feeling up close. This past December I lost both of my parents. I lost my mother December 5th due to a heart attack. My father, who was terminally ill, passed away 3 days later. My dad had been bed ridden for some time, and my mother was taking care of him at home. When he got the news she passed, he didn't want to live anymore and basically willed himself to die. They were married 34 years.

It's crazy, because I was in for Thanksgiving and all was ok. My mother was in the kitchen dancing to her oldies music as she cooked food, me and my brothers ate at my parents and had a good time. I got a call December 4th from my oldest brother, talking about a Christmas present for mom and dad. He said "by the way, mom doesn't sound too good, you should call and check on her." So I did, and she didn't sound too good. I keep asking her what is wrong, she was like "I don't know." I told her she may need to go to the hospital, and she was like I will be ok. Her last words to me were "I love you." I then told her to give the phone to my 2nd oldest brother, and told him to call the ambulance.

I get the call around 1 am, December 5, that she had passed away. I was literally frozen in place. I then made the trip to my hometown (4 hour drive), which seem to last forever. I got home and saw tears in my father's eyes for the first time ever. We got him moved to the local hospital while we were making arrangements for mom. The plan was to move him to the nursing home. Within 24 hours, he went from talking, to not being able to say anything and just having a blank stare on his face. We knew he had given up. Me and my brothers told him if it is what he wanted, go and join mom. And that is what he did. I am at least grateful I got to say some last words to him.

So the holiday season has been non-existent to me this (past year). Just thinking that I will never see or hear them again gets me weak. But now I'm just like I got to live everyday to the fullest and don't take things and people for granted.
 
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