Does heartbreak, depression and sadness ever feel GOOD to you?

[Sad Bunny]

i'm an artistic person so i appreciate any emotion at all but i do have to agree that things that can be crazy. whether you're numb or ecstatic, it's all good.

i'm on the tail end of the worst part of my life and the main thing i've taken from it all is to keep pushing through it. experience it all fully. in my life i've felt bigger than god and worse than the antichrist and everything else in between.

it's still not over.

i'm a firm believer that it's not what happens to you, but how you handle it. dwelling on the past in the wrong way only stagnates growth. pity parties are 'fun' and i've had my fair share but i don't see a point in letting anything permanently hinder this shine .

so deep, so insightful :wow2:

I kinda become a recluse when depressed or sad. I hate the fact that I reach out to all of my friends and sometimes I don't get a call or message just to check on how I am doing. I check on them all the time. I'm a better person than them.

imma see my shrink next week.:lupe2:

also -- i go thru really low depression points and then when im on the verge of feeling normal...i get manic...and really talkative...and inspired and creative...its weird. ill write thoughts, lyrics and do collages with my artist friend or think of paintings that my artist friend can make for me.....its really crazy brehs. :lupe2:

i just need 2 talk 2 my shrink about a few things that have been bugging me the past month:

1. my feelings and thoughts on my relationship

2. how my family and friends don't reciprocate what i do for them (even if it is a text to say "how was work?" or "how are you doing."

3. my career....im happy at my current job, but i just hate being complacent and want to stay sharp so i know my next move

4. controlling my anxiety

5. me hating the world and people in general like twice a week

6. improving my health


we gone make it, breh

 

[Buckeye Fever]

If you find out your girl cheated on you, it makes it easier to spit at females and ask for what u really want (sex), instead of tryna wife her up.

If I ever get cheated on from here on out, ima be a wild ass nikka, givin zero fukks

 

[The 2020 New Member]

so deep, so insightful :wow2:

I kinda become a recluse when depressed or sad. I hate the fact that I reach out to all of my friends and sometimes I don't get a call or message just to check on how I am doing. I check on them all the time. I'm a better person than them.

imma see my shrink next week.:lupe2:

also -- i go thru really low depression points and then when im on the verge of feeling normal...i get manic...and really talkative...and inspired and creative...its weird. ill write thoughts, lyrics and do collages with my artist friend or think of paintings that my artist friend can make for me.....its really crazy brehs. :lupe2:

i just need 2 talk 2 my shrink about a few things that have been bugging me the past month:

1. my feelings and thoughts on my relationship

2. how my family and friends don't reciprocate what i do for them (even if it is a text to say "how was work?" or "how are you doing."

3. my career....im happy at my current job, but i just hate being complacent and want to stay sharp so i know my next move

4. controlling my anxiety

5. me hating the world and people in general like twice a week

6. improving my health


we gone make it, breh

freestyle time.



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[Sad Bunny]

If you find out your girl cheated on you, it makes it easier to spit at females and ask for what u really want (sex), instead of tryna wife her up.

If I ever get cheated on from here on out, ima be a wild ass nikka, givin zero fukks

i am going to watch 500 days of summer tonight. so inspirational when it comes 2 heartbreak

 

[Vandelay]

Some people get used to taking Ls, and when they actually win they dont know what to do.

"Play the charts like the beatles, yall adapt to loss, and toast christal on behalf of yall"

 

[PrnzHakeem]

And what does my depression have to do with trolling? :lupe2:

everything

Going for cheap laughs to get a fake and fleeting emotional high. Running from your reality to your notifications page.

So demonic.

 

[Sad Bunny]

everything

Going for cheap laughs to get a fake and fleeting emotional high. Running from your reality to your notifications page.

So demonic.

I troll because I'm bored at work, breh.

 

[Azire]

Life is unkind.

For the most part, there are people around when we first come into this mess, but early on it becomes obvious for some that the only constant is themselves – ie, you.

That’s a hard fact to marinate on. People ultimately die alone. We can die together, but each of us encounters death alone – feel me? Nobody there guiding you. Sometimes people can't let go out of fear.

You're already aware that anxiety drives your thought process towards negativity. Thoughts shade reality more often than we’d like them to. So if we already know we think negatively, why continue to do it?

Thoughts are kinda useless when it comes dealing with life, anyway. Thoughts inhibit instinct. I need to be in tune with reality and all of what’s going on around me - Sherlock Holmes style - in order to fully process what’s good and make my next move. Instinct will kick the ass of over analysis in your case because you're already geared toward the negative - if you think, you're screwed

A big tenet in Buddhism, as I understand, is discarding attachments – don’t grow too attached to anything, because all is constantly changing. Things come and go, and you experience them, and often you can’t fathom things being any different than they are right this moment, but life has a tendency of changing. We can’t get too comfortable, we can’t get too uncomfortable. The moment we accept the fleeting nature of reality, the quicker we are to enlightment, Nirvana, your favorite band, whatever.

I’ve had some experience with severe depression, and the best I can tell you is that there is usually something underlying the self loathing you know so intimately. If you somehow find the kernel of the problem, you’re that much closer to the truth. It takes quite a few tears, tense moments, and overall hopelessness, but meeting the shyt straight on is often a better bet than running from it, because you always have a tendency of catching up with you.

Apologies if this is deep, but I heard your struggle and it kind of sounded familiar. Good luck with this, bruh

In closing, try not to take your psychological shortcomings out on those closest to you, because that will only increase your self-loathing – more shyt to feel guilty about in the long run.

From your description, it sounds as though you may be fukking with some Manic Depressive Disorder. Check the symptoms out, see if they ring any bells.

 

[StarClout]

It's not supposed to feel good

 

[IronFist]

Nah it doesnt feel good. I may be bolded enough to tell a story about a fukked up breakup



Maybe

 

[WheresWallace]

I think it just feels good to actually feel after living a life of numbness

Anyone else know what I mean? :lupe2:

I actually understand where OP is coming from. I think the fact that I understand where Gator Reloaded is coming from is most depressing thing.

 

[*L*E*G*A*C*Y*]

I know what you mean,..its hard to describe. But I think when you are used to a period of deppression sadness for a long period of time it becomes familiar and comfortable.

on the downside, it's hard to break out of cause so much of it is self-imposed. The limits we put on ourselves and the possiblities for happiness too come with it.

 

[Matt504]

very insightful thread.

 

[DrHackenbush]

people can get addicted to any strong emotion whether it be good or bad

 

[Born2BKing]

Recently caught feelings for a chick after I thought I'd never do it again. Things didn't work out but it did feel good to know I could possibly love someone again. I can see myself married one day now. Just have to find that one chick you can't live without.