But I learned about the multiverse and found the answer: absolute infinity. It answered so many questions for me, made me more intelligent, more wise. Then I got to the point where everything was possible. Then came the realization that it doesn’t matter. There are an infinite amount of me’s doing and infinite amount of things. Where do I start, what do I do? Then the realization once again hit that we’re stuck in an animal body, in a 3D reality, on a planet with limited resources. It’s a trap. Sometimes I think our consciousnesses are trapped on a prison planet. It’s disheartening.we are here for self-actualization, not necessarily reproduction. for some (most?) people having kids is a part of that
from my observations, older folks that truly realized their potential (think someone like Nas or Martin Scorsese) AND had kids/grandkids are happier than older people who have kids or grandkids but feel like they could have done this or should have done that. There are people who realized their potential and DIDN'T have any children who also seem content but the first group is the goal for most people I'd say.
I think we are also looking for transcendent experiences and that can be a great film, great p*ssy, drugs, catching the holy ghost, etc. We chase p*ssy as a part of that hunt to lose our selves in something, losing yourself in another person![]()
Then the nihilism came into play more, and that line of thinking leads to another trap at the end, one that is hard to get out of (if it’s even possible).
There are some thoughts and realizations that can trap you. Thoughts are the most important things in the world. Sometimes being ignorant is a blessing. The ultimate realization you are chasing could lead to your demise.

Not sure I'm comfortable with where this is heading, breh.

