He doesn't want to be with me anymore... He came home, took the ring back, said I'm not who he agreed to marry and that he doesn't think of me the same anymore. He took his clothes and other stuff and left. He told at least one of his friends why he left, because I saw a facebook comment. Someone else made an unrelated post and this (best)friend commented saying "Next thing you know you find out your fiance banged a few dozen men and likes gang bangs like 'his name here'. The guy deleted it after but I still saw it.
It was 10 years ago... I was supposed to stay in the past. No one knew about it and that's how I wanted it. Now people do, and I have no clue how many.
I never wanted to do it. I was never into it. But because there wasn't a gun to my head in his eyes I did want to and that's what I'm into. He thinks I'd cheat on him. He thinks it's embarrassing being with someone with so many partners. Thinks he might know people who I slept with. Doesn't want to be married to a "porn star" as he put it.
My son thought of him as his dad. He's confused and hurt and I can't tell him the truth. I've always been honest with him. Anything that he has wanted to know he was told the truth.
Something that I wanted to forget about is going to follow me around forever. My ex continues to make my life hell. He gets 8 hours a month to visit our son, rarely shows up. He came this time and with a smug look asked how it was going. My son told me that his "dad" said he was going to be coming more and going back to court. So of course he's upset about that, he's a stranger to him.
Everything can come crashing down so fast...