Hello friends, been having a lot of thoughts about my current situation. I've bounced it off of some of my RL friends and now decided I could get some input from the always insightful and brilliant minds of the coli. Please excuse what may be a long post.
So back in 2011, I moved to a new city for a job. My first day there I walk in and this beautiful girl is sitting at the front desk. I introduced myself and end up chatting for about 20 mins. Turns out that she had just started there a month prior, and coincidentally we had both moved from the same city.
I immediately started crushing on this girl like I hadn't done in years. I don't really get like that. My office was right by the kitchen so she would walk by multiple times daily refilling her water. Every time she came by we would talk and flirt a little. shyt started driving me crazy.
Finally after 6 months I said fukk it and asked her out. I held off cuz I don't like mixing work and relationships but I couldn't take it anymore. We end up going out for drinks, having a great time and I end up smashing at her place that night. I was on cloud nine brehs.
So we end up dating, but its only about twice a month. Both of us were busy a lot with various things but we made it happen when we could. I was def having major feelings but playing it cool. We kept this pace up for about 6 months when she hit me with the info that she was not ready for a relationship. She was fresh out of college, living with 2 of her sorority sisters in a high rise and she wanted to be free and enjoy her time without having to be tied down.
I tried to convince her how good of a thing we had (which she agreed), but her mind was made up and she said its best if we don't see each other anymore. Straight punch to the gut. Had me messed up for like an entire year. I was ready to wife her.
I had to un-follow her on FB cuz every time seeing her just brought back those feelings. Anyway, I moved on, dated several chicks and was in a 1.5 year relationship, etc. But not one of those chicks gave me that fire in my belly that she did.
So fast forward to 2 weeks ago (about 4 years since we dated) she texts me, says its been so long since we've seen each other, hopes I'm well etc. We go back and forth and end up deciding to meet for drinks last Friday. I have no idea what her intentions are so I'm playing it low key as hell. We hit it off like we hadn't missed a beat, and once again I end up going back to her place and smashing. We end up spending the whole wknd together, smashed like 5 times. She told me it was over a year ago that she had sex.
I'm enjoying seeing her again and want to see where it goes, but I damn sure am not going to get all in my feelings again just to get kicked in the nuts again.
So what do y'all think? Am I only setting myself up to fukked over again?
TLDR: dated 4 years ago and I was ready to wife but she wasn't and kicked me to the curb. She's now pursued me and we've had sex and are planning to continue seeing each other. Is this a bad idea on my part.
now u thinking more with your brain and not just your feelings
