
to your 1st part.
No homosexual activity involved involved Sir. It's not going to happen overnight unless you're just that powerful of a being. Try this for a month. You have to truly be dedicated to it. And be honest. Honest is the key to knowing yourself, so you will never have problems or when problems arrive you'll defeat it and live life stress free.
Every 3 days, write down activities that happened throughout an interval that day anytime after 6pm. Set an interval of 15-30mins. So If you start Monday, I would remember everything I perceived through that time block. I mean everything you could remember, don't be shameful just write everything factual that comes to mind. For example if you were at the mall and you noticed the color yellow and then you noticed yellow teeth on someone walking by, and then you see someone with fake J's, write that too. This is all to help you. Be truthful to yourself. Within a hr of you falling asleep that same night (You tap into into your unconscious mind when you're in a trance), write down what you remembered and every 3 days do the same thing until you have 7 notes.
After you have seven, you are going to go in reverse. (3 days later)You will now try to remember off head what you wrote down for the 7th note without cheating. Do it the same way within a hour of you going to bed. Then 3 days later do the same thing, etc until you've reach the 1st note you wrote.
These will expand your memory to the point where your like

I remember when I 1st started I was reading and learning trigonometry/ calculus and getting doing great at it in my 1st week. Literally anything I said I was gonna read or learn I did it and excelled. I never felt so great in life before. I got kicked out HS 10 years ago and never went further than basic math. It really cleared the cob webs and made my perception of the world better. Check out my threads I made late Dec to Feb. It was during that time I woke up the God in me.
I have some visual learning exercises if you can make it through that.
It's like this, there's one big pool of energy that everything is connected to. When your connected to it, you can manipulate things. Some people are aware of this and has reached this level use it for their own reasons. I'm not going to lie I was a bit

because you really see the world for what it is but it sucks when you see people struggling and then don't really have to.