got diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder

[WickedSkengman]

sohh ive been diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder. it means i avoid all situations in life that i dont enjoy or feel comfortable in. thats why i can only speak to my hood friends and i spend most of my days hiding in the boxing gym from the real world. i avoid job interviews and community college interviews. i quit or do something to get fired from all my jobs because i feel more comfortable in the boxing gym. they said it stems from a deep rooted lack of any self esteem. i also have self destructive behaviour patterns that stem from lack of self esteem. i dropped out of school and got a criminal record when i was 16. i punish myself because i dont believe im worth anything. i only have self esteem in the boxing gym and when im smoking weed with my friends.

the doctor said there is no cure. just psychotherapy. i refused to go to counselling because they tried to make me go in school when i was always in trouble. it didnt work.

how can i get self esteem? ive had 11 amateur fights and ive won 8 of them but it still doesnt give me self esteem outside of the gym. i work out real hard to get in shaoe for my fights. so exercise is not an answer.

does anyone know any ways to get self esteem without benzos and alcohol?

 

[Matt504]

Welcome back old friend.

 

[WickedSkengman]

Welcome back old friend.

the good die young i aint eligble for that

 

[Hybrinetics]

have you quit getting high yet?


you cant be accurately diagnosed while still using

 

[hoodheronova]

get good at boxing and stalk Al Haymon

 

[WickedSkengman]

have you quit getting high yet?


you cant be accurately diagnosed while still using

this started years before i ever started smoking weed. stop trying to blame weed. weed is one of the few natural medicines that help me. foh.

 

[Larry Lobster]

Open your own boxing gym.

 

[OG_StankBrefs]

Wait...yomoms?


lol fukk. Dis got to be like yo 15th account now.

 

[WickedSkengman]

Open your own boxing gym.

with what money? my last 3 paycheques have been gone the same day i got them. now im fired i dont even have a job.

 

[Hybrinetics]

this started years before i ever started smoking weed. stop trying to blame weed. weed is one of the few natural medicines that help me. foh.

told you months ago to quit or shyt would get worse. you laughed

 

[Trajan]

Wait...yomoms?


lol fukk. Dis got to be like yo 15th account now.

Breh needs a place to vent. I don't begrudge him that anymore

 

[kav45]

welcome back indica, why not move away from birmingham?

 

[WickedSkengman]

told you months ago to quit or shyt would get worse. you laughed

what are you talking about? ive had this avpd since i was 14. thats 4 years before i ever started smoking weed. weed actually helps me. i dont know what your problem is with weed or why you seem to think that it caused all my problems when ive had this disorder since i was 14.

 

[Raava]

I knew from the Beyonce thread

Go to therapy

 

[WickedSkengman]

Breh needs a place to vent. I don't begrudge him that anymore

i cant speak to my friends or boxing coaches about this. id be laughed out of the hood and the gym. my family disowned me for this disease. they thought i was just a piece of shyt. but i had legit avoidant personality disorder. i remember when it started too. i was the good kid n my family. my big brother was the savage who wasnt meant to be shyt when he grew up. but he actually ended up doing something with his life because hes always had self esteem. now im the black sheep of the family and everyone is ashamed of me.