I've never done civilian side and probably never will. If anything goes wrong at least my family gets broken off

..Civilian chutes not so much. The day you aren't nervous about jumping is the day you go see mental health. I've been aboard with Ranger Instructors, Navy Seals, Special forces, etc and everyone gets nervous. It's perfectly natural. I've seen the biggest of men with multiple combat deployments, shot at blown up, etc

inside a plane. There is nothing like walking onto the ramp, when it's pitch black knowing you are about to jump from a perfectly good airplane

..You should be nervous. The day I'm not is the day I stop. I've seen guys pee themselves. Great equalizers of men are water, heights, cold and dark. One of those you are going to be afraid of or struggle with.
Below are ramp exits and blackhawk jumps. Blackhawk jumps are
This is a Casa plane. Basically a go-cart with wings. Peep how many people that can fit inside. Skip to 1:52..
Blackhawk jumps are

Your feet just dangling.

Get that green light and pat on the head and out you go