Has anyone ever attempted suicide before?

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I always though it was too expensive and I really don’t like bringing the abuse up.

I have a balcony.

I've lived in this apartment for two years now, and I've never stepped on it because I worry that I'll be in the wrong mind state and hurl myself off.

I'll be stepping on it for the first time on Friday (when my patio chair gets here).

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I've attended a few meetings, but I need to do more. It doesn't replace therapy, it does and can co-exist.

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I’ve had suicidal thoughts before but I’ve never acted out on them. shyt has been pretty bad for me lately but the only thing keeping me going right now is my family. For those who attempted it what made you do it and what was your family and friends reaction to it?
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Im not comfortable with explaining my issue here cuz nikkas will use it against me. If you want details than you can PM me.
Man breh you said it yourself. You are valued. Your family values u and you know that. Capitalize on that fact my guy. Listen I've been to the bottom and came back. You can too
 

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I’ve had suicidal thoughts before but I’ve never acted out on them. shyt has been pretty bad for me lately but the only thing keeping me going right now is my family. For those who attempted it what made you do it and what was your family and friends reaction to it?

I try to avoid high places because I've felt pretty low most of my life. Can't say I've ever attempted however.

I always had the thought that I had to take care of my mom. Now that shes gone, I'm kinda like empty with no clear purpose.

I have goals and dreams now, but they don't seem as real as my usual despair.

There’s a poster, I think he may be bushed, that almost went through with it, but after taking the pills, he went to the hospital. No, I’m not going to say who, but if he wants to share, he might be able to answer some questions.

Me, personally, for most of my life I’ve always thought about killing myself. It was normal for me to think about dying all day. I thought it was just the way things were. I thought life was just shytty and horrible.

Then, I got on the right meds (which took a very long time to figure out), and it’s like night and day. I no longer think about suicide all day. Every once in a while it will enter my thoughts, but it’s for a very short time.

After I got on these right meds and remained stable for a while, I looked back at my previous experiences and couldn’t believe I lived like that for so long. I had no idea what “normal” felt like. Living in deep depression and anxiety is not normal. You don’t have to live that way. It might take a while to find meds that work for you (it took me years, plural), but it can change your life considerably

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Do whatever you can to get help. Trust me. I've felt like you have before. Thought therapy was too expensive, pointless, and redundant. I had suicidal thoughts for years and got close to attempting it several times

Now I have a sense of peace and feel happiness that I haven't had to this extent since I was a little kid

I wouldn't be alive to tell the story if I hadn't gotten help. It sounds corny but it really does get better with time. PM me if you feel comfortable doing so

When I was a teen I made some botched attempt to hang myself...I've also done some p*ssy attempts to overdose but to no avail. I once got put in a psych ward as well...I'm on meds right now so like @Ciggavelli the thoughts aren't as frequent. My advice is not only seeking help but to be willing to make whatever changes are necessary to alleviate the despair. There's no easy remedy unfortunately.

Do the meds really help? My dad is a drug and alcohol counselor who hates anti-psych meds (ironic I know) so he has always said they don't work.

Swore that if I did xyz like he does, I'll be straight.
 

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I can't say that it hasn't crossed my mind a few times....but ultimately, I decided that no matter what, I could never do that to my mama and little brother, it would absolutely devastate them

Bro I promise you, whatever it is, u absolutely will get through it. Don't ever count yourself out like that. Try to literally treasure each moment as it's happening, that'll help you appreciate these moments a little more. I recently started doing this; it sounds corny, but I call it 'living attentively'

Don't ever quit on yourself, ever. You have family, meaning you have a network of people to fall back on, so that's a good start.

I'm a lil tipsy right now, but I hope this made sense lol; hopefully it helped


Also, another thing that might help: try to keep overall news consumption to a minimum, all that negativity will really start to weigh on your spirit and mess with you and make you even more depressed
 
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I worked with a dude that did. He tried to shoot himself by putting the gun under his chin, but the bullet went through the roof of his mouth and one of his nostrils, and grazed up the rest of his face. They did complete reconstruction of his face, but that nostril was destroyed so they basically closed it up and he only could breathe through the other one. He would tell everyone to call him Vader because his breathing was so labored :mjlol:.
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Could never fully go through with it due to thinking about how it would effect my mom, dad, family, etc. Not wanting to live on this earth anymore, but living due to the feelings of someone else is almost the equivalent of mental slavery.

By the way, everyone is saying its not worth it, get help, blah blah blah. The truth is suicide has been the peace that some people were looking for and if the pain on this earth is too much to handle and peace must be achieved by any means necessary, then hey. Its unfortunate, but this world is pretty trash and is only designated for certain people.
 

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I try to avoid high places because I've felt pretty low most of my life. Can't say I've ever attempted however.

I always had the thought that I had to take care of my mom. Now that shes gone, I'm kinda like empty with no clear purpose.

I have goals and dreams now, but they don't seem as real as my usual despair.







Do the meds really help? My dad is a drug and alcohol counselor who hates anti-psych meds (ironic I know) so he has always said they don't work.

Swore that if I did xyz like he does, I'll be straight.
The thing with meds is that not every med works for everyone. Medication isn't always necessary. But when someone has a chemical imbalance to the extent of bipolar, severe depression, debilitating anxiety disorders, psychosis, etc, medication should be strongly considered

Certain meds work better for some people than others. It's all about finding the right medication for you in collaboration with your psychiatrist. That process can be long and tedious but the feeling you have once you recover makes it all worth it

Another thing is medication needs to be taken on a set schedule and in conjunction with behavioral therapy, coping skills, eating right, getting good sleep, socializing as much as you can and leaning on your support system

Medication isn't the end all be all. It's something that alleviates symptoms and makes it easier to function on a day to day basis

The key is to learn the coping skills laid out in therapy and practice them daily so you can manage and have a foundation to stand on once you eventually get off of the medication. Depending on the individual, some need to stay on medication longer than others

Edit: just seen the first part of your post. That's my ADD

My condolences to you and your family. Honestly bro you may or may not need medication. It's something to discuss with a therapist. I will say that using drugs and alcohol to medicate not only doesn’t solve the problem but increasingly makes mental health issues worse the more they're used to cope

I definitely feel you. Sometimes I feel like everyone I know who drinks, smokes, so on and so forth are happier but my logical mind says that they're just coping. They aren't solving what's ailing them

I look at it like this, I'd rather get to the root of the problem and work towards a solution than put bandaids over it. Coping with substances won't do any good for you no matter how much it's popularized or deemed acceptable
 
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I’ve had suicidal thoughts before but I’ve never acted out on them. shyt has been pretty bad for me lately but the only thing keeping me going right now is my family. For those who attempted it what made you do it and what was your family and friends reaction to it?
I had a college roommate who struggled with depression. Two years before I roomed with him he had tried to kill himself inside the dorm (hanging) but a friend literally walked in at the exact moment and tackled him, they did a 5150 and made him stay in for a while, college made him take a semester off of school before he could come back. I don't know much about the specifics because I didn't know him at the time.

When I was living with him, some guy tried to get at his long-term, commitment girlfriend behind his back, sending her messages and shyt. She didn't go along with it and kept telling him to stop but she didn't tell her boyfriend (my roomate) because she knew that he was struggling a lot and was scared he'd do something. He found the messages on her computer somehow and got so upset he decided to kill the guy and off himself. But because of cali gun laws he couldn't get at a gun right away, so he decided to drive to another state to get a gun. The time it took to get there (and a lot of prayers from us) might have taken the edge off a bit, in the morning the next day before he had bought the gun he called us and his girlfriend managed to talk him down from it. Since he was so far away and hadn't slept all night and might have been a danger to himself he actually had to fly back to cali.

We were pretty freaked out about it but at the same time it wasn't a total shock because he had tried before. If he had gone through with it of course we would have been devastated, but because it felt like he had gotten to the edge and pulled back we actually felt some peace afterwards, somehow the fact that he had stopped himself in mid-act showed us that he realized he had something to live for. He started doing a lot better after that and while I can't say that he never dealt with depression again, he definitely never moved towards another suicide attempt.
 
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