Has anyone ever felt disconnected from humanity/society?

[*L*E*G*A*C*Y*]

I feel this as of late. Maybe it has to do with the extensive time I spend on the internet. Maybe it's depression. Maybe it's because of living in NYC and constantly being around people all the time, gettting easily annoyed by them, and wanting to be alone. I just do not feel like I'm a part of this society...at all. I'm honestly just disgusted by humanity and the way it's going with it's constant bickering, conflicts, isms, idiocy, ignorance, apathy, vanity, materialism, anti-intellectualism...I just constantly feel alone too because of this. Like I'm the only one thinking this way. Like I'm part of this world, but I don't feel a part of it. Like I'm not doing what everybody else is doing not even because of a strong desire not to, I just don't care. I feel like a robot sometimes...just losing all emotion, one by one. Just disappointed with what I see around me. Rejected by a society I never asked to be a part of. Whatever.

even typing this out I know I'm going to be met with a bunch of smilies and quick glibs for daps and reps and even that in a way...pisses me off. How stupid the majority of people are in this country and how easily entertained the are by the unfortunate disposition of others and how they aim to trivialize things that weren't meant to be seen as such. The worst thing about it is when I dwell on it, I just feel more incentive to not do anything.

Talking to women at the bar last night made me realize this...I don't even have that basic contact or feel that whatever...maslow's hierarchy of needs. I feel like just due to how hard it has been for me to get to this point I just deny myself those needs cause it's easier not to pursue it just for survival's sake. Pardon, I'm just not in a great state of mind right now so I apologize if none of this makes sense. I just get so disgusted with people and myself sometimes I just don't seek to interact with anyone. Probably why I like being on here so much. I don't have to deal with getting shut down or feeling rejected by people...

People like me in real life. I have friends. Most people have nothing bad to say about me...I just feel incapable of even mustering up those same sentiments...it doesn't even seem real. Just...whatever...there. I don't know. I just feel bad sometimes, like due to this I've lost all ability to just conversate on a basic level

 

[Monster]

i feel you breh. current society is just unnaturally artificial because humans have mastered shyt too well.

i think that's all it is though is a 'weird' feeling because we know we'd be different in a different environment. like if i had to just wake up today and really fight for shyt in the moment and not think of the political manuervers etc

 

[???]

dude you are about to be on gay ass mtv2, shut the hell up man... nobody cares, life sucks, deal with it bro... we are all in this doo doo crap, complaining everyday aint gonna do shyt...

be grateful and enjoy what you have bro, what's the problem?

 

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[VegasCAC]

It sounds like you're lonely.

If I lived in NY I would be your friend

 

[???]

i feel you breh. current society is just unnaturally artificial because humans have mastered shyt too well.

i think that's all it is though is a 'weird' feeling because we know we'd be different in a different environment. like if i had to just wake up today and really fight for shyt in the moment and not think of the political manuervers etc

dude the internet has ruined "time", people like legacy, me and most of society are wasting time worrying about bullshyt on the internet. back in the day, shyt was going on but we didn't give a fukk and just enjoyed life.

now things have changed, the internet although very helpful will continue to ruin everyone's perception about society, we're all insane drug addicts right now, i mean everybody is fukked up worrying about shyt that they can't solve...

 

[Monster]

It sounds like you're lonely.

If I lived in NY I would be your friend

fighting loneliness isn't about friends. it's about talking about the rela shyt you want to talk about. you could have a million friends but if there's no real depth or relate to you on a certain wave length you''ll still feel lonely. better to have the friend thatyou can talk about the rela shyt with(i'm not saying that's not you)

 

[???]

It sounds like you're lonely.

If I lived in NY I would be your friend

dude is an internet addict like the rest of us, we're all losers in this 24/7 information age.

 

[Dafunkdoc_Unlimited]

Since I was born, breh. It's the curse of Introversion.

I NEVER feel comfortable in groups of people and would much rather spend my time alone or with as few people in my immediate vicinity as possible.

I'm somewhat astonished that I'm married.

Don't dwell on it. Accept that you are an Introvert and make the best of it in a world ruled by Extroverts.​

 

[Quiet Magician]

You need friends nikka. Lonely nikkas always be saying this type of shyt and puts blame on others instead of themselves.

 

[Konnan]

Just do you breh and fukk everything else

If you think its the internet then disconnect for a couple of weeks

 

[???]

You need friends nikka. Lonely nikkas always be saying this type of shyt and puts blame on others instead of themselves.

he aint lonely, dude is a loser like the rest of us, using the internet as comfort.

just imagine what will happen if this whole world wide web shyt just gets taken off, a lot of these new age fakkits will just give up on life, because there will be no where to hide.

 

[TheBeigeBomber]

he aint lonely, dude is a loser like the rest of us, using the internet as comfort.

just imagine what will happen if this whole world wide web shyt just gets taken off, a lot of these new age fakkits will just give up on life, because there will be no where to hide.

nah. i hide in the boxing gym. i dont have to go job hunting when im in the gym

 

[Dafunkdoc_Unlimited]

Watch this......



.....then go read this.....

 

[*L*E*G*A*C*Y*]

Okay, at this point I'm now just convinced...I got to disconnect myself from the internet...and reconnect with humanity and society...and inturn...reconnect with myself.

Like I'm realizing certain things typing this. Getting too wrapped up in the internet and technology, just made me take people for granted. I don't want to do that anymore, or feel like I'm not being the best person I can be. All of this is fickle at the end of the day, I'd rather get to the point where I value my real life relationships more. And I need to forge more of those. And stop being consumed by fear or anxiety or ambivalence towards everything and anything.

Like yo...I was afraid to even say what I said in the OP and even this post, but you know what...I've been about facing my fears lately. I'm not trying to be consumed by fear and anxiety. Sometimes it's best to face your fears head on. The internet, becomes this safe haven, where you can create this little world, where you can be the king and/or queen of your castle...but it ain't real. This reminds me of why I stopped watching TV...I just wanted to get into real life more.

Its easy to forget that there's someone behind that computer screen...