Keepin it 100, most men has their fukk ups with hoes, mainly because we were never put on game by our elders. My dad is a great man, but he is passive and nonchalant.
So, that equals me learning the hard way. I never loved a hoe, hell to be honest, I think I'm incapable to love in the typical sense... But I made a hoe my girlfriend. Straight from the hood she was, and here I was an emotionally inconsistent breh destroying the game in Corporate America, making bank.
We just drank and used drugs multiple times a week for like a year to escape our emotional issues and shortcomings. She was fun because she was attractive and passionate about any and everything. She was a chamelon, whatever you liked, she loved or at the very least tried to find interest in it.
Every other girl I dated was bland in comparison, so I kept dealing with her. Regrettably, being in bliss and on autopilot, I spent a shyt load of money on our multiple (and I mean multiple) entertaining excursions, ( she was broke af) but it got to a point where she fell in love with me, my health started to deteriorate and I became extremely addicted to emotionally abusing her.
She started getting emotionally and physically violent and started throwing a tantrum in my house more and more, so I had to drop her before I woke up with the horse's head in my bed. Ran into her in Jersey last weekend actually, she seems to have gone through some emotional growth (as have I) and seems to slowly try to crawl back in my life.
Holidays get women crazy, I suppose.
Sometimes I think about the mistakes I made with hoes (keeping em around too long, putting them in a LTR, not pumping and dumping, wasting time, wasting money etc) and I cringe like a mothafukka, but you live and you learn. Better to go through that shyt a few times than make a lifestyle out of it like most nikkas. I paid an enormous price for not staying true to the game, now I just flow from the survival scrolls and keep it funky.
I just pray for the brehs who impregnate a hoe or worse.. marry them. Dating them is hard enough. But having the courts back your angry hoe that you married?
