Thank you. Bro everything I say on here I can literally show proof. I’ve always had depression but ever since 2021. I get it in the winter time and it just crushes me. 2023. I started drinking alcohol in the winter in 2024. It turned into some kind of weird health anxiety. I spent thousands of dollars just for the doctors to tell me I’m fine.
But I think I did lose weight too fast so it was causing dizziness and just weird reactions. But I’m better now I went to therapy today. I’m still going every two weeks and I’m just hoping I never go to that dark place ever again. It was terrible.
I was texting 988 daily. My family and friends never heard from me for months and if they did, they could just tell it I wasn’t the same person even some of my coworkers noticed.
But I’m in a much better place now and I have the tools at my disposal to avoid letting it ever get that bad again. I just feel like if I can make it through that I can get through anything at this. Honestly, I’m just trying to have a good summer and create a bucket list to enjoy life.
I can lie though. I saved a lot of money and I lost a lot of weight because I didn’t have the energy to do anything so I’m even looking at the positives from that situation.
My queen held me down for real. I owe a lot to her.
This is awesome. Thank you for sharing this,
One thing I’ve always believed in is resilience
Regardless of what comes your way.. you can find a way to find the best path and that requires not only your strength but also someone who cares enough about you to fight with you. Internal struggles have the hardest impact.. A lot of people don’t want to acknowledge mental health and the reality is that the first battle is with yourself, your mind, your thoughts, your feelings..
It’s very easy to act like everything’s ok… but there’s a reason you can’t sleep at night.. there’s a reason you started drinking, there’s a reason people look at you like “what happened to who you used to be” because unless they understand the mental battle, they will never understand the strength it took to be “normal” again.
And the best thing is having someone by your side to help you overcome it. I hope you appreciate yourself and the woman by your side because sometimes it’s hard to understand how overpowering the mind can be. How much turmoil it can cause. The beauty of having people around you who love you and are willing to deal with those hardships is realizing that you actually do matter. Because they loved you so much that they always stayed by your side and helped you get better.
I have someone like that in my life too and I have never felt more loved from someone who was not my parents.
I’m so glad that you’re in a better place..
I really want to know what is the first thing on your bucket list that you’re going to do?