pride has been holding me back because I don't want to look weak but idk
Breh it's kind of hard to avoid thoughts cause they just pop up on you and then once you're in funk it's hard to stop thinking that way
Practice. Its a mental muscle you have to strengthen. That's why i emphasize meditation.
I should be more clear
It's just hard for me to understand that nobody really cares
Everybody is self centered
I don't get people for the most part.
Even though I have friends I feel loneliness because most people for self while I'm about everybody.
I made the mistake of thinking people were like me I guess. I have too much faith in people.
Ye it's apathy
I hate being stagnated
I'm not content if I'm not making moves.
I have a need to be great I need acknowledgment. If I feel looked over or fogotten I feel low. I shine so hard because I'm great at a lot of things but once people forget then im feeling bad again. Thats why I'm so good at school or music or what ever I do. I need acknowledgment.
If it's not something I really care about them I'm apathetic about it. I can't live being content with what is going around me. I want more and I'm chasing it but it's not happening as fast as I want it.
Gratitude, patience and self-validation. Shift your focus from where you think you need to be. You are where you need to be. You are where you are at because you still are learning from your experiences. That's what life is about and you will never stop growing and developing.
Shift your focus to positives. If you are always in a mindset of lack, nothing will ever be enough. You will always want more or what you don't have. Appreciate what you have and you will create space to have more.
Shift your focus to you. You can not control other people, you can not fully know other people. Trying to is futile. Their thoughts, opinions and actions are based on their experiences and perspectives. Its not about you because they cant really know you fully either.
You can only control yourself, of you are not satisfied you can change. It is also important that you take time to know yourself and why you are not satisfied. If you know what you don't want, then you know what you want and can work on manifesting and achieving that.