You lost OP, I bet it hurts doesn't it? The pain of not being able to love the one you felt most connected to? I bet your sick to your stomach and lost a couple nights of sleep over this. So what can you do now? What are you choices? Simple, you use the fuel of this defeat and make yourself stronger, use the pain you feel now as a lesson and a motivation to improve yourself. If you never want to feel this pain, the pain of defeat then find your faults, fix them, and move onto the next girl, and trust me, there will be another girl.