I dealt with a situation today that got me so depressed...

[Rozay Oro]

how do u know i wont be happy driving?

You're the same breh who wrote bout wanting to pull up at the red carpet with two hoes for each arm and shyt. I hope you do find happiness tho.

 

[Killer Instinct]

Aren't you the same guy who recently made statements condescending and thumbing your nose up at black men & women like....

I been around nikkas all my life and never understood them. I was always quiet in school observing nikkas behavior confused. Surrounded by chaos. Kids doing drugs, having sex, fighting in class, arguing with the teacher. I was sitting calm reading completing my assignments. All the cool nikkas would copy my paper and of course they had all the bytches. Now those same guys are bum ass nikkas.

This is my first day. A first day for a new beginning. Say goodbye to the creative world and hello to the Class A CDL industry.

Right now I'm doing orientation and it's like any introduction. Just course outlines blah blah blah. It's cool tho. I already studied and got my CDL permit on my own so I'm three weeks ahead. I've always been a great student so that's no surprise.

I'm actually a highly toted prospect. I have a college degree and my recruiter was thrilled about that also I brought my dad strategically to show him Im not some desperate person from a broken home that he can exploit.

But he was thrilled and told me that they were excited to have me. They were happy that I'm mild mannered, well spoken and have no criminal record. I'm a unicorn in the trucking industry. Most truckers are real losers. Shady individuals and bottomfeeders so the industry want more educated candidates . They really love military.

I digress, I'm here. I never thought that I would be driving a truck but I'm wiser in my later years. I see it as an economic spring board to finance my dreams and goals.

Trucking is like a legal drug game. U get in and get out. Plan,Work, stack then get out and flip. Never be a dumbass and just do OTR for 25 years and complain about how evil the industry is like some stupid redneck. These mother's just drive on some Jordan wearing 45 love of the game shyt and then get health problems and cry foul. That's for suckers. U gotta plan man.

This is a means to an end. All the can see is bright sunsets in tropical settings, beautiful woman, seeing the world. Fly whips, fly gear, fly apartment. High ceilings, wooden floors. Ain't nobody gonna do it as fly as me man. Gonna have the red drop top. Set the whole block on fire, I'ma watch it burn down out my rare view through my aviator shades with a maniacal laugh

I'm a genius but pretty soon the world will see. Im not some avg peon peon motherfukker. It's all good. I'm patient.

Anyway ama man

Meanwhile....

My life is a practical joke man. I was at my shytty pizza shop job today.....

and I'm thinking to myself "damn I cant believe I'm in this position." I got a acne face white girl telling how to speak to people.

Man...life is a whirlwind.

 

[Clay Puppington]

I swear most of them motherfukkers are inbred.

 

[J.E.T.S]

Thought you was truck driving too nikka what happened?!

I'm starting to think that you just like being pitiful breh. You just love having a reason to post this depressing ass shyt all day.

Toot ya nose breh. Just gone head be a J breh... it's ova wit for u.

 

[DrX]

Thought you was truck driving too nikka what happened?!

I'm starting to think that you just like being pitiful breh. You just love having a reason to post this depressing ass shyt all day.

Toot ya nose breh. Just gone head be a J breh... it's ova wit for u.

no actually im in CDL school and you need to buy a shotgun and put in your mouth

1. u got a escort pregnant

2. while getting a mentally ill bytch pregnant

3. while fighting a case that might put u behind bars for a decade. Im just venting about minor shyt on a message board stupid.

 

[J.E.T.S]

no actually im in CDL school and you need to buy a shotgun and put in your mouth

1. u got a escort pregnant

2. while getting a mentally ill bytch pregnant

3. while fighting a case that might put u behind bars for a decade. Im just venting about minor shyt on a message board stupid.

And after all that... I still got more money, hoes, and sense than you.

How you feel?

 

[Carlton Banks]

Life will get easier once you get that CDL breh. Trust me. I've worked over 20 driving jobs. I'm never worried about losing my job cuz I know if I quit or get fired, another place will hire me right after.

 

[DrX]

And after all that... I still got more money, hoes, and sense than you.

How you feel?

if that help u sleep better at night my man....

 

[DrX]

Life will get easier once you get that CDL breh. Trust me. I've worked over 20 driving jobs. I'm never worried about losing my job cuz I know if I quit or get fired, another place will hire me right after.

how is your career going? do u like driving? what are u doing now? u ever move from nyc?

 

[010101]

that's not wavy*

 

[J.E.T.S]

if that help u sleep better at night my man....

It does actually. Thanks. Now go fukk ya bald head mammy in the ass with one of your rolled up paintings.

 

[Critical Distance]

I hear ya.

 

[mannyrs13]

You one of those delusional get rich quick types. Always complaining that you're stuck in a system that keeps you down but never doing anything to better yourself. Society doesn't give a damn about you because they got their own lives to deal with. Hopefully this trucking gig goes well for you cuz if not you gonna be stuck in the same endless loop and we'll keep hearing your whining. You the only one with these issues cuz I don't see anyone else complaining. You need to make a change in your life and don't expect the world to give you everything cuz you're some sort of genius like you claim. You were doing good with the art thing and had your own unique style, don't know why you don't try turning that into something. But try to do something cuz you the most depressed man this site has ever seen.

 

[Zak Bible]

Im chilling listening to my sad music. Max B- First Of The Month. Max the only rapper since Pac to make u feel his pain.



I digress today got me feeling more down than usual

I feel trapped in this facade of a society with no way out. I keep trying to come up with these schemes in my head on how I'm going to escape but the reality is...there is no escape. Life is a perpetual re-run everyday like that movie groundhogs day with Bill Murray. A never ending loop.

My life is a practical joke man. I was at my shytty pizza shop job today and that's the only job available to a black man here and I got into with this little east Indian shift manager last shift.
https://www.thecoli.com/threads/i-hate-indians-man-i-want-to-choke-my-coolie-co-worker.644009/
He blamed me for taking a pizza to the wrong address when somebody on the line labeled it wrong. He was talking slick , talking down to me and of course I had to get in his face and tell him don't blame me for shyt I didn't 'do plus I'm not a child I'm a grown man. I wanted to tell him if he got a problem we can go outside but that's not the answer. I'm to old for shyt like that man. So he told the store manager (some white bytch) and shes chastising me and I'm thinking to myself "damn I cant believe I'm in this position." I got a acne face white girl telling how to speak to people.

Then I go to another pizza shop because we bought pizza and wings tonight. I hate dealing with cacs or giving them my money but I love pizza so I made an exception. I go into the spot right and of course theres this typical cuck looking Howie Mendell looking cac looking at me like he never seen a black man in person with that "Get Out" look in his eye like he wanted my black skin to keep. He got on his cac clothes, dad shoes, polo tucked in his above the knee shorts and medium length white socks. He see me looking fly. In shape, body toned up and looking fly in my wack ass work uniform and he had this weird lust. If nobody was area Im sure he would've made a pitch for me to cuckold his wife. I know thats what he wanted. She was checking me out too.

Thats whats it like being a black man in Amerikkka. Surrounded by weirdos, death, jail, jealousy. Vultures everywhere.

I'm at the age where I'm supposed to be somebody father, somebody husband
and have a house but I'm scrapping for dimes . I cant even just quit because I actually need the money until I graduate school. I got my pre-hire already for trucking but I still need this little change to hold me down until the fall.

I felt so low having to submit as man. Amerikkka likes to keep a black man as a child. Its almost like you having to be willing to die for your basic respect. Its illegal for a black man to be a man in this country. They'll do anything to keep you under some sort of shackles. Everytime we figure an exit we usually end up dead or in jail. Many the black men in prison is our leaders esp the ones for non violent crimes. They were our most ambitious and strongest and that's a threat , so they left the hood with the dusty nikkas that cant build or lead men.

Why u think they through Ralo in Jail? they didn't care about him selling dope and stunting..it was the fact he bought that apartment complex and gave ppl free rent and the fact he had young black men practicing Islam. That's scary, not diamonds and cars. His influence as a independent strong black man scared them.

I digress...I wish I was a real grown man. I wished I lived in a majority black city with a circle of like minded friends. Being solo constantly fighting for my respect and sanity has taken a toll on me over the years. Only thing I got left to keep me going is my faith in the most high. without that I don't know where I would be.

I don't even know if feels like to be a free adult in this country. I'm supposed to be looking for a baby sitter to watch the kids while me in my wife have date tonight , getting dressed up and us enjoying yourselves but instead I'm sitting in a small room alone reminiscing on the past on a Saturday July evening.

The older I get the more I think about the past and how things used to be. Things were different back then. It was dark, violent but we had a community back in the day. The black community had so much soul. We were our own people. That's the only world I knew as a kid. I wish I could go back to that time and be a kid forever. Things were so different. I feel so outta place in modern times man. Like I don't even know how to adjust . I feel like an Alien out here. I feel like fabulous , a young OG. old enough to be wise but young and powerless enough to even implement it. I feel buried alive. A dead man walking but aware of it.

I'm a lost soul just wandering this earth waiting for my time the pearly gates call me home.

You need a blunt and a pawg to hold you over til you meet your queen

 

[Concerned Citizen]

Didn’t read whole thing but maybe white guy at pizza shop looked at you crazy cuz you walked in with a competitors uniform on