Life looking real bleak and I really don't any hope or see any point to it no more
What's even the point of trying to do or be anything? I'm not entitled and think I deserve anything in life because I know life doesn't work like that because nothing is promised or guaranteed. But damn something you want should happen sometimes. I'm not a "nice guy" who thinks he can buy shyt with being fake nice but its discouraging when you see other people catching all the breaks. When you at least try to be a halfway decent person but I know that doesn't mean I deserve anything and it shouldn't because you should be a good person for the sake of being a good person but that's just how I be feeling sometimes.Most fukked up thing in the world is when you can't do nothing, but there's nothing you can do

I guess that's one of the flaws of being a man. I can do all things and fix everything for the better but the one thing worth having I can't do anything about.
I have all this tenacity, determination and ambition that has carried me so far in life when I had no help, concern or pity from anybody but it can't carry me to thing I value the most. Idk I just feel like maybe the universe owes me one and i don't like feeling or being selfish but damn can I get what I want once? I don't even want a lot. I do so much for others and I still find time to do for myself with no help. Not complaining about it but damn.
I'm too young and know too much about life. I wish I was ignorant and was happy with material and trivial shyt but i'm not.
life looking hopeless





