I don't want to drink anymore

[Straw Hat Luffy]

Man I'm a be honest. All my friends drink, parents where functional alcoholics. It's hard. Was drinking heavy in college. After starting getting panic attacks shyt went to another level. shyt was just self medication. Now it's just something I have to do. Otherwise I can't sleep. Now I ain't one of them drink at work type cats, cause to me alcohol isn't a drug that you can work on. Makes work a chore. But, I've tried to quit. At this point it's a part of me. Generally alcohol makes a nikka happy as fukk. Watch TV Shows, listen to old school love songs. etc...But sometimes. I get real angry and bitter. Can't sit and lie like I have the worst lot in life. But sometimes I just look at what other people got going on, and just get angry. Not at them. But at myself. And people are quick to say you can change your life. But you can't change your life in a day. You can't earn a degree in a week. Nah mean.

I can relate man so much... Its like I look around and blast other people by going out talking about I don't need people to have fun on the weekend I can get a 12 pack and enjoy myself watching a favorite show of mine or something then it suddenly became everyday and some how I make the excuse as long as I'm at the house minding my business not causing any harm and going to college everyday drinking as soon as I get off isn't bad. Its like I can't imagine myself having fun or just enjoying life without drinking which isn't the case because I used to be like that once before drinking

 

[BillBanneker]

I drink every day and I hate it

shyt straight posion

I hate myself guys

I have no clue breh, I'm stuck in the same cycle.

 

[SouljaVoy]

Man, Weed absolutely fukks me up. For whatever reason it always has. I don't fukk with it anymore. That's a lie, I'll take a puff or two if I drink. But if I just smoke weed by itself I'm paranoid as fukk. Weed ain't for everybody.

Weed is really not for everyone.
When I was young like in middle school weed was fun, but it's like the older I get, mentally I cant handle that shyt.... The thoughts just get down right scary. Basically weed for me is a big anxiety attack & derealization.

Go to the Dr if you got insurance and get Valium or librium, going to go through DTs which ain't fun. Been trying to get off heroin forever I can relate to the feeling of needing shyt to feel normal. Gotta deal with the reason you started drinking your feelings away tho or relapse is inevitable.

Man how did you get on Heroin? You must have started on persciptions and couldn't afford them anymore huh?

 

[BillBanneker]

Yeah I'd switch it up sometimes like get E&J and switch up the beer with Four Loko/ those flavored 211's

you were drinking 750ml daily with beer on top of that.


I thought I was

 

[Black]

you were drinking 750ml daily with beer on top of that.


I thought I was

I was drinking all day until I passed out.

 

[toomanydoses]

I started heroin before prescriptions at 14 Got a script fraud charge to afford it. It makes you feel like nothing matters, literally the apocalypse could be going on and if you're nodding you wouldn't give a fukk. Just used to experiment alot and that one hooked me. Crack Nah, wet Nah, heroin yes. Guess the roulette wheel landed on smack for me.

Weed is really not for everyone.
When I was young like in middle school weed was fun, but it's like the older I get I mentally just cant handle that shyt.... The thoughts just get down right scary. Basically weed for me is a big anxiety attack & derealization.



Man how did you get on Heroin? You must have started on persciptions and couldn't afford them anymore huh?

 

[BelowTheMasonDixon]

make strides to quit, seriously

even if your that one in a hundred thousand who gets to old age with minimal problems it always catches up to you. my grandad wasted away in under a year when he had been fine before that.

if it ain't in 10 years it'll be 20 etc etc

Fam you right. You right as hell. It kinda started with me being a sociable alocoholic, Like all my nikkas that I grew up with was club goers, lady killers etc...I've always been a chill cat, non of that shyt really was my thing. I like chicks but I hated the club scene. But they always wanted a nikka to go out, so I'd get drunk go out and when I was drunk, It was like I had magic or something. Talk to fine ass chicks, I wouldn't even approach sober, had some great times. had fun, "had a life" But that shyt is fake. shyt is like an alcohol fueled dream sequence. It's like being a whole nother person. But the way I've been looking at i recently is like I got a beer gut. I ain't never been a athlete or nothing but I damn sure didn't have a beer gut. I've fukked around and pissed so many chicks off. Snapping on they ass for little to any reason. And I mean like long time friends and lovers. Blood pressure high as fukk. Threw up and shyt blood. but that bottle a bytch. When its good its great. When its bad, it's all bad.

 

[BelowTheMasonDixon]

I started heroin before prescriptions at 14 Got a script fraud charge to afford it. It makes you feel like nothing matters, literally the apocalypse could be going on and if you're nodding you wouldn't give a fukk. Just used to experiment alot and that one hooked me. Crack Nah, wet Nah, heroin yes. Guess the roulette wheel landed on smack for me.

At 14 bruh? Damn.

 

[BillBanneker]

I was drinking all day until I passed out.

damn bruh

 

[acri1]

Man, just being honest. I can drink 12 16oz beers and be damn near sober. I can't stand liquor, but if I don't buy at least a few miniatures to add on, I ain't getting a buzz.

I got a pretty high alcohol tolerance myself but trying to drink that much beer would just have me feeling bloated and sleepy to the point where I wouldn't want anymore.

 

[bangbreh]

Cold turkey is the scariest thing I've ever gone through

 

[BelowTheMasonDixon]

I can relate man so much... Its like I look around and blast other people by going out talking about I don't need people to have fun on the weekend I can get a 12 pack and enjoy myself watching a favorite show of mine or something then it suddenly became everyday and some how I make the excuse as long as I'm at the house minding my business not causing any harm and going to college everyday drinking as soon as I get off isn't bad. Its like I can't imagine myself having fun or just enjoying life without drinking which isn't the case because I used to be like that once before drinking

IT GETS LIKE THAT. Like I don't even do it to be sociable anymore. It's just like fukk it I'm bored I need a buzz. "You wanna go out fam" Nah I'm good, I'm a watch the game or play the game and drink this entire 12 pack. And even then that would be cool. But people don't believe alcohol is a downer. It's all good when you having a good time and shyt. It's fun. But every now and then it plays a joke on you. And you feel angry. and depressed. That's why you be seeing all these white chicks crying cause they drunk. OR you see nikkas ready to fight cause they drunk. That shyt puts you in a bad place. Alcohol can give you good and bad trips like any other drugs depending on how you feel at the time. You got some chicks falling thru its all ball. But when you sitting at home by yourself and everyone out and about or doing some shyt it can go left on you real fast.

 

[BelowTheMasonDixon]

I got a pretty high alcohol tolerance myself but trying to drink that much beer would just have me feeling bloated and sleepy to the point where I wouldn't want anymore.

Oh you right. it can make you bored and sleepy, but then you wake back up a few hours later and... wash rinse repeat.

 

[Sonic Boom of the South]

alcohol never did it for me

 

[Arris]

Fam you right. You right as hell. It kinda started with me being a sociable alocoholic, Like all my nikkas that I grew up with was club goers, lady killers etc...I've always been a chill cat, non of that shyt really was my thing. I like chicks but I hated the club scene. But they always wanted a nikka to go out, so I'd get drunk go out and when I was drunk, It was like I had magic or something. Talk to fine ass chicks, I wouldn't even approach sober, had some great times. had fun, "had a life" But that shyt is fake. shyt is like an alcohol fueled dream sequence. It's like being a whole nother person. But the way I've been looking at i recently is like I got a beer gut. I ain't never been a athlete or nothing but I damn sure didn't have a beer gut. I've fukked around and pissed so many chicks off. Snapping on they ass for little to any reason. And I mean like long time friends and lovers. Blood pressure high as fukk. Threw up and shyt blood. but that bottle a bytch. When its good its great. When its bad, it's all bad.

I'm pulling for you for real I come from a long line of alcoholics on both sides so I know