For the first time in years I feel that I've conquered my depression. I used to have this fukked up view of myself that I wasn't shyt and was destined to fail. For years I kept rewatching my failures over and over like Bill Buckner when he messed up in the 86 world series. The root of it all was losing so many people at an early age, and just not fitting in. my depression drove the friends i had away at one point. . I was suicidal And attempted without hesitation. I remember that summer. I wound up in a psychiatric ward for a month. It honestly helped me see what I needed to do. I didn't love myself enough. I felt like this pessimistic loser that would never amount to anything. I've been by myself with minimal friend contact for years. It did nothing but motivate me. And realize who my real friends were. So i I had to go through years of rebuilding. And open my eyes instead of remaining inside the hole i put myself into. I couldn't go out like the others I've seen succumb to depression. I've watched the process just drain the hope out my father. I couldn't let my mom go through that again. I read every day, my grades are better, I just feel like anything is possible. I feel like I'm an asset to this world rather than a waste.
I'm going to crush buildings in 2016
I'm going to crush buildings in 2016
