I hate being alive

[Malta]

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I don't hate being alive, I do hate being here though. I want out of the working world badly, I want to live on a beach and just wake up and do whatever the fukk I want even if that means just sitting in a hammock all day while reading a book.


Another cold ass winter on the horizon too

 

[Brandeezy]

I've been feeling a void in my life lately, I think its mostly from a desire for female companionship in my life, preferably from a girl I could see myself seriously with long term (Not just some casual encounter). It's just hard to find that one for me. Especially when I don't feel I'm where I wanna be in my life financially and career wise just yet. I'm only 25 and I know I have time but I just wanna get things in motion already.


I feel better reading this thread of coli brehs going through shyt too, we not in this alone

Same breh except I just turned 28 recently with no job, skills, friends, and never been in an relationship. Feels like it's too late for me in most aspects of my life. My moms said to me a couple weeks ago that I kept changing what i want to do with my life every other month which is true. I find something i want to do then it bores me and i switch to something else. I really want to find a cabin in the middle of the woods and just live there with nature or some shyt as weird as that sounds. Or live on an island by myself, which i feel like it would give me more meaning that what i'm doing now.

 

[Gonzo]

If you need to talk...or Skype watch me pee. I'm here for you always.

You need to stop playing around and let those titties loose. I'm very serious about this. Can u send me a pm of those bare boobs? I'm pretty down atm

 

[Rarely-Wrong Liggins]

When I drunk with a gun to my head you talked me out of it @Rarely-Wrong Liggins

I was just being a brother is all. Glad to see you holding strong.

 

[Rarely-Wrong Liggins]

I think everyone fears death

Hmm, to a certain extent yes. But I feel this realm is only the beginning. In fact I know it is. But I'm not trying to convince brehs who want to rest peacefully in the darkness, you know, the nothing else is there crowd.

 

[paperbag]

I can't knock you for feeling this way. But depression is a disease and you can't always "action" your way out of it. Particularly if you live in a toxic atmosphere.

It's like having cancer and then being bathed in refinery waste. It won't make it better. Depression is the cancer and the waste is America. This country is a grinder now and people are just existing the best they can. If you're able to actually live breh my hat is off to you.

But I thought you liked being bathed in waste?

Hopefully things get better for you, cute fat baby and woman with post pregnancy stress incontinence in your future

When I drunk with a gun to my head you talked me out of it @Rarely-Wrong Liggins

See liggins, youre out here saving lives

 

[ellessij]

You need to stop playing around and let those titties loose. I'm very serious about this. Can u send me a pm of those bare boobs? I'm pretty down atm

I'll let em loose for @Rarely-Wrong Liggins, if he really needs some cheering up. And that's about it.

 

[reserved_one]

I lost my Dad to cancer last month...been staying strong and positive but at the same time I been hurting alot....drinking alot.

But I dealt with depression majority of my life. Its not fun at all

 

[KENNY DA COOKER]

OP if u don't man the fukk up and throw this Puzzy azz thread in the bushes ...

I swear I'd personally come choke u out myself

This is shameful

And you are a BLACKMAN?!?!

YOU MEAN TO TELL ME U DONT KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH STRESS AND TRIBULATIONS OF LIFE?!?

Do you know HOW MANY PEOPLE GOT IT WORST THAN YOU??

I GOT A PARTNER WHO IS DOING A 15 YEAR BID RIGHT NOW FOR TAKING A CHARGE FOR SOMEONE ELSE AND EVERYBODY FAMILY AND FRIENDS HAVE BASICALLY FORGOT ABOUT HIM..

RIGHT NOW SOMEONE IS SUFFERING IN THIS COLD WEATHER HOMELESS

AND YO BYATCH AZZ UP HERE WHINING IN YOUR COZY CRIB ON MESSAGEBORED TALKING ABOUT "GIVING UP"

FUKK WRONG WIT U....THERE ARE LOT OF KIDS ON THIS BOARD WHO DONT NEED TO SEE THIS SHYT....

And your a STAFF MEMBER OF THE COLI too?!?

Who Raised you??

SUICIDE RATES ARE HIGH....

DELETE THIS THREAD

 

[Ronnie Macho]

It's a different feeling than hating your life. When you hate your life you acknowledge that things can be better. When you hate being alive you acknowledge that nothing can make existence any better.

So, why won't you just die? Well, troll, I don't want to go to hell. While I don't fear death I'm not trying to get the express bus to the dark side of downtown. And I guess this feeling will pass eventually. Maybe. Who knows?

Freepost. Remember that shyt? No one says it anymore. Daps and reps.

Good afternoon.

I don't wanna live either nikka...so live...my sister took my bullets from me 2 nights ago...my mom took my gun from me yesterday and I sold it to a shop...been suicidal for more than 10 years...was gonna kill myself a few nights ago...was almost successful on 3 different occassions throughout those 10 years...you are here for a reason and it's because someone else really needs you but you're 2 hurt 2 see it!!!...Wake up and LIVE!!!...

 

[iBrowse]

I get them and lose them like keys. Some unemployed nikka is sniffing is girls pee soaked panties making him late to pick her up in her own car and I'm searching for clips to download each night.

Dammit man dis tew much

 

[kingdizzy01]

betas

 

[KENNY DA COOKER]

I just want all Yall to know

YALL SOME WEAK AZZ HOES

I thought this was a HIP HIP HOP board

Not a suicidal therapy group

Didn't no so many of Yall is WEAK

considerding all the shyt y'all talk on here

Especially YOU @Kavin The 1 ...

Every week you was beefing with someone offering them a FADE

I Guess it was a front cause u really don't like yourself

 

[SchrodingersStrapped!]

The feeling never passes and the more you look out the more bleek it seems ....shyt only ever gets worst.

We not allowed to vent either, taught to keep everything bottled up.... Be stoic and content with the worst this bytch has to offer till you strung up ....

 

[Ronnie Macho]

I just want all Yall to know

YALL SOME WEAK AZZ HOES

I thought this was a HIP HIP HOP board

Not a suicidal therapy group

Didn't no so many of Yall is WEAK

considerding all the shyt y'all talk on here

Especially YOU @Kavin The 1 ...

Every week you was beefing with someone offering them a FADE

I Guess it was a front cause u really don't like yourself

Nah...I retaliate when nikkas start shyt...but this is about a breh needin' help and support...this is why us Black men are in jail and killing each off...because we think it's lame...soft and p*ssy to have emotions and care about someone other than ourselves!!!...You can continue 2 be weak and tear down others in need or you can change and positively help the situation...Black Men...collectively around the whole world are the most hated on the planet...not even terrorists and wild animals get hate like we do...SO HOW THE fukk COULD WE NOT BE AFFECTED BY THAT MENTALLY WHEN OUR PEOPLE ARE SETUP TO HATE EACH OTHER MOTHERS ABANDONIN THEIR CHILDREN EMOTIONALLY...I AM A RAPE KID...ME AND MY SIBLINGS WERE BROUGHT HERE THRU RAPE!!!...SO I AIN'T NEVER FELT WANTED!!!...YOU'RE A CLOWN 4 REAL!!!...