LOW SELF-ESTEEM SOUNDS SPOT ON
LOW SELF-ESTEEM SOUNDS SPOT ON
hell yeah....but how much would you really say psychedelics helps you? I ask, because I have a lot of mental fixing to do, and I don't really know any other way of doing things anymore...THATS WHAT U THINK....THE SUBCONSCIOUS REVEALS SHIET THAT UD NEVER KNO. TRY SOME PSYCHEDELICS IMMEDIATELY IF NOT SOONER.
It means you have the thoughts of a degenerate and think everyone can hear your sins when you speak.
i just got scared calling for a takeaway.
but the act of boxing and fighting someone doesnt scare me. of course you get the normal pre fight nerves. but nowhere near enough nerves to make me not want to box.
i had to physically force myself to make a phone call just now. i cant physically text people. like i will just go straight into avoidant personality disorder and make excuses as to why i wont text. like it could be my own moms textin me and i just cant bring myself to physically text back. like theres a physical/mental block that i cant explain.
i think i have mental issues. like i have to drink alcohol for job interviews to make myself go. i use the boxing gym to hide. dead serious. i hide from the world in the boxing gym.
mentally what does this mean?
It means you have the thoughts of a degenerate and think everyone can hear your sins when you speak.
You ever do something wrong and then just feel alienated from the world for a couple weeks. Maybe you should take some time off of being a degenerate and im sure you will find your social gifts again. Its a trade off. When you feel guilty or scum its hard to interact with other people. You either have to accept yourself for what you are or you know, change yourself into who you want to be. I imagine when you sit around daydreaming about raping women its got to have an effect on how you interact with normal human beings.i have strong paranoia too
You ever do something wrong and then just feel alienated from the world for a couple weeks. Maybe you should take some time off of being a degenerate and im sure you will find your social gifts again. Its a trade off. When you feel guilty or scum its hard to interact with other people. You either have to accept yourself for what you are or you know, change yourself into who you want to be. I imagine when you sit around daydreaming about raping women its got to have an effect on how you interact with normal human beings.

Its your mind not mine. I dont feel guilty when i do shytty things so i can always talk to people after i did something shytty like nothing happened.define wrong?![]()
I've had social anxiety my whole life
Im 27 and i do a job that high school kids do
I have a few friends, havent got any p*ssy in a few years
This sh*ts really fukked up my life. I have a hard time getting real close to anyone. I have an oppertunity to soon get a job as a personal trainer but I'm procrastinating, it's a big challenge for someone like me but id really like to get more money and move out of moms and pops crib
I'm a weed addict too. I tried meds (celexa, klonopins)....I found myself doing dumb shyt and shyt that uncharacteristic of me at the time. I also couldnt get my pipe to work a few times while i was on the meds
On the flipside...I feel like I've gathered the knowledge i need to overcome this. I'm alot less insecure then I used to be. I realized u gotta have tunnel vision, focus on what your doing and block out all the side distractions. Be who you truly are, don't deny yourself of your natural traits even if a few of them might be "feminine". Most likely, they aren't really feminine. Just some sh*t that got drilled in your head through the hip hop culture.
F*ck pride, pride is what got me to where I am now. Bury any pride you have homie. For me it was like i had to be a tough guy, no RnB. Just mobb deep, the lox.
I constantly looked down on other dudes for being softer then me. I hated the younger generation for wearing skinny jeans and having all these soft tendencies. I thought Drake was a fakkit.
Between media, hip hop and whatever else i felt like i had to be a certain way.
Now I'm just being me and I feel alot more comfortable in my skin. I don't criticize others, I don't look down on others because thats a false sense of security. I feel alot more comfortable in my own skin
It took me years to see all this but I had way to much pride to acknowledge how insecure i was
I believe the only things bringing me down still are my weed habits and my late nights...being up til 3am.
Honestly I feel like I've thrown away most of my prime years. I still got time to make up for it. To anyone whose read all this and has any type of anxiety problem, if u want it u can do it. Eat good, work out, take care of youself and be who u really wanna be. Don't criticize others and don't think about the haters when its time to make that phone call, when its time to go get that job, when its time to ask that girl for her number. Picture success in your head, be confident and having good lifestyle habits will only help you here.