I think I'm becoming a part time agnostic

Rozay Oro

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I find myself trying to juelz my way of saying I believe in God but at the same time saying I don't. In my head.

My mom will listen to some YouTube prayer session clip on her phone and I'm just like kind of annoyed.

Spent some time with my dad and other family members earlier this week. My dad wasn't being a dikk but his character just makes me like him less.

He wasn't shytting on anybody but his cynicism, stubbornness, selfishness, inconsideratable, etc.

I can't really give an example because it's all subtle.

God forgive me but I hate his ass. He's a disgusting human being. It sounds exaggerated but I have never encountered someone so unlikeable.

Idk if he's become this person slowly in the past decade. Honestly I barely spent time with him in that past time and the short bursts I'd see him he always was an a$$hole.

I didn't think in the span of two days without him shytting on me. Just his character and shyt. Decimates his bullshyt ways in the past decade. In my view he went from a$$hole to scumbag. THIS IS WITHOUT shytTING ON ME.

I would never want to be what he is. I love him as a fellow human being since he's not murderous and etc. As a father I don't, I can't call him a role model nor admirable figure.

I don't know how to digest both of these feelings. I have no where to dump or receive feedback.
 
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i've managed to make it through life without the fear of judgement from a magic man in the sky with a bunch of arbitrary rules that he doesnt follow himself

tells you not to kill, but murdered the entire world in a flood because he didnt like the people on it :heh:

tells you not to fukk your neighbor's wife, but seeded up Joseph's :dame:
 
Rozay Oro

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TreeElecHuggica said:
The flaws of people shouldn’t make you lose faith

Everyone is fukked up and you will dislike everyone of you knew them well enough

That still doesn’t negate the existence of God
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It's more the daily racism that makes me feel that way.

My dad is a separate thing I was just venting.
 
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@Rozay Oro - "34 Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. 35 For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law. 36 And a man's foes shall be they of his own household. 37 He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. 38 And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth after me, is not worthy of me." - Matthew 10:34-38

....I suggest getting into reading scripture, because when you actually know it yourself you become aware of how much it is misrepresented and/or misunderstood in general....
 
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