Man I've been very disinterested in sex or women from a sexual standpoint. I rather have a companion and somebody to cuddle with that'll assure me that I'm doing a good job. Somebody to nurture me.
I had a 'thick' female customer and didn't feel nothing on the inside, no arousal for her enormous titties and big ass. She seemed uneasy and extra polite, because obviously i took her power away, which is no surprise. But the thing is that wasn't my intent, ..I wasn't trying to play mind games with her, I really didn't feel nothing. That chick might as well have been an object, like a talking mailbox. I didn't feel any connection to her.
I don't watch porn, don't stare at women in public in tight outfits, I have no sexual urges anymore at the moment. I'm so in love with my dreams that I Just don't care. I'm simulated by my craft. I don't really even want a woman company unless she's a cool person to just have a conversation with.
Idk, I really think, once u step into a different zone mentally. The things that u used to value just isn't important anymore. I'm losing my sexual appetite, I don't even know if I want a family anymore either.
I just want to travel and see the world. I don't want sex. The thought of it at the moment bothers me...like I feel like I would swing on a female if she tried to touch me without permission. Because it's a violation, I know how woman feel when men violate their personal space
I had a 'thick' female customer and didn't feel nothing on the inside, no arousal for her enormous titties and big ass. She seemed uneasy and extra polite, because obviously i took her power away, which is no surprise. But the thing is that wasn't my intent, ..I wasn't trying to play mind games with her, I really didn't feel nothing. That chick might as well have been an object, like a talking mailbox. I didn't feel any connection to her.
I don't watch porn, don't stare at women in public in tight outfits, I have no sexual urges anymore at the moment. I'm so in love with my dreams that I Just don't care. I'm simulated by my craft. I don't really even want a woman company unless she's a cool person to just have a conversation with.
Idk, I really think, once u step into a different zone mentally. The things that u used to value just isn't important anymore. I'm losing my sexual appetite, I don't even know if I want a family anymore either.
I just want to travel and see the world. I don't want sex. The thought of it at the moment bothers me...like I feel like I would swing on a female if she tried to touch me without permission. Because it's a violation, I know how woman feel when men violate their personal space
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