I think I'm going through a depressive spell...anybody else going thru one?

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That's the thing. I can't pinpoint.

It's hardwired, so this will happen as long as I live.

It stems from childhood trauma etc.

I'll be OK...but trying to figure out the cause will drive me crazy
why are you unhappy in your relationship?
 

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Childhood drama is the root of adult depression. Trust me, the wondering and questioning will never go away, YOU just have to figure out how to use it to your advantage.
 

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I feel down, i want to be alone, everyone is inking me.
I just want to eat and sleep and lay in bed and watch movies.
I am diagnosed with depression, so i can't pinpoint exactly what's depressing me, but my mind keeps asking myself:

"do you hate your job?"

"Are you unhappy in your relationship?"

"Are you under financial pressure?"

Depression is all in the head, so I am trying to steer these thoughts away. The truth is...I have depression and anxiety and it can be triggered by random things. I'll never know what exactly is triggering it. I haven't felt low in MONTHS SO IT SUMS TO KNOW THAT IT IS RETURNING. I was really depressed around this time last year and the year before though. I'm noticing a pattern.

kid cudi in the headphones and gym after work. Salad for dinner. I'm going to fight this brehs.

Fml. Okay now back 2 work.

Any other brews want to share a story?
Jesus again, get help or fukk outta here. Im getting tired with your bi monthly doubts with being a fukkboy.
 

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God, let me tell you this. I been through it all too

A few years back a close family member of mine took his life. When I say we were like bros, shyt beat me up like I've never been beaten before. Son I was ready to 1 myself too :wow:. During that time, I was engaged too, that went to shyt as I was drinking and smoking too much. My head was all over the shop

Fast forward a few years/to today, I am still not the same. Seems like a combo of the weed and losing my man took a toll on my brain and fukked up the way it works. I was in a relationship for about 7 months with a chick I really liked. Then my depression took over me again, fukked up that relationship and that was the one that hurt because we loved each other so much so quickly then I messed up and it went to shyt.

During our relationship I got a new job and moved to a new city, no family, no friends but more money = more stronger weed, coke/yay and Courvoisier and you can probably guess how I felt. I kept dreaming craziness about her, my mother dying (she's alive inshallah...But for some reason I can't stop thinking of her as she is almost 70 now), my bro killing himself and just wanting to die. I also was listening to a lot of Tupac. Dude just filled me with some much emotion I started crying at work one day when listening to So Many Tears/Life Goes On. Even getting emotional now

But a few months later I'm OK, aint smoked or sniffed anything in months. Drink only when my team are around, I hit the gym a lot more, got new gym buddies I kick it with. Signed up to POF, getting some kootchy, but ultimately it's not my ex.

But I learnt that life is what you make it. Depression comes, depression goes. Roll with the punches. Understand what makes you upset and try and counter-act it.

Talk. Talk to yourself A LOT. Reassure your self. Talk to people outside of your family and circle.

Most of all, keep your chin up and remember at some point things will get better. Keep your ridahs close. Praise Allah everyday, or whoever you worship. Meditate.

Also, listen to this. It helped me a lot through my dark times:



Sometimes you gotta dig deep, when problems come near
Don't fear things get severe for everybody everywhere
 
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Sometimes its just you chemically, especially if your parents suffer from depression. Both my parents have depression and suicide runs in my family. I was in college, getting good grades on full football scholarship, yet I couldn't get out of bed for weeks. Things got so bad I said fukk it and went to the doctor. I tried a couple of different medications but didn't stick to it. Finally, I decided to give it a real shot and honestly it was the best thing for me. I take zoloft and I havent had trouble getting out of bed or bad depression for a month which is the longest I have ever gone. If you haven't given it a chance, I suggest you at least try medication. It's not for everyone but you don't know til you try.
 

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Sometimes its just you chemically, especially if your parents suffer from depression. Both my parents have depression and suicide runs in my family. I was in college, getting good grades on full football scholarship, yet I couldn't get out of bed for weeks. Things got so bad I said fukk it and went to the doctor. I tried a couple of different medications but didn't stick to it. Finally, I decided to give it a real shot and honestly it was the best thing for me. I take zoloft and I havent had trouble getting out of bed or bad depression for a month which is the longest I have ever gone. If you haven't given it a chance, I suggest you at least try medication. It's not for everyone but you don't know til you try.
I feel ya. I think a light dose to regulate my mood would be perfect
 

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You need to take medication because depression can end up killin' you. Schedule an appointment with your doctor and talk about how you're feeling. The doctor may end up prescribing you medication and send you to a therapist.
 
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