I want to die but I'm too afraid to kill myself.
- Thread starter The Realist Perspective
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Smokin Rider
I been official
I've been depressed for like 6 years and I'm 25. Lost pretty much everything I have and all my close partnas moved to FL or died or in prison and I can't seem to find work. I used to wanna kill myself and tried to see a therapist but it feels fake like u payin for someone to care (which they don't) so I've accepted myself and the things I cannot change. The real change was when I copped a pistol to use either on myself or the one I was beefin with and realized I don't have it in me to off myself, all I could see was my momma cryin and my lil nieces and brother and realized I really did want to live I just needed the power to decide. Suicide never crosses my mind now. I've picked up my life by doin things like joining a gym and going hard at it and goin back to school. I suggest you do the same breh find a hobby you enjoy and get good at it and realize a lot I people are struggling with the same shyt you are so you ain't alone in that regard. And yeah some lame squares might crack jokes but they got their own insecurity problems they don't know how to deal wit that's why they might laugh at your problems because they can't figure out how to deal with their own.
Smokin Rider
I been official
I should say I was depressed cause I've been feelin good for awhile now but I can accept the bad days or even weeks when they come because everyone has them and they'll pass so when they come you just have to just find somethin to distract yaself and don't let them throw you off from doing your hobbies or whatever u enjoy
So kind so humble
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