If you ever thought about suicide, what made you change your mind?

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i'd rather go full demon time honestly if i'm going to crash out like that. i like life but if the wicked world drove me that far i'd rather go out swinging and get on my Osama Bin Laden or Joker shyt before i just body myself like a p*ssy

plus there's always the possibilites of new experiences, good food, good music, good p*ssy. never completely lost the ability to enjoy things
 

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Often I think about how much joy I would have missed out on if I had ended it at 18. I've had so many wonderful moments and experiences. There was no way I could see at 18 how fulfilling the next 25 years would be. Life looked bleak. Had few friends, was a virgin with no girlfriend. Was at a college I didn't like after attending a high school I mostly didn't enjoy. Had unresolved trauma.

Now I'm a six figure exec. Proud father of a couple kids. Been through therapy. Way more confident. Got to travel to 5 continents. Been swimming in p*ssy pretty much every week since 25. shyt ain't always perfect but life is good :ahh:

So hard to see that it will get better when you are suffering through the worst of it. I was depressed for years and just never knew it. Once I realized what it was things began to get better. Now when the dark cloud comes I know lifting weights will cycling consistently will usually do the trick and shift my mood. Trying to prepare myself for my kids' dark adolescent days because I know they will go through it too. Genetics and all...
 
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The gun jamming. I pointed a glock 19 to my temple when i was in my early 20s.

Also another time when I was high off edibles I had negative and suicidal thoughts. I had the shotty next my bedside . The only thing that kept me from doing it was hiding the actual bullets and forgetting where they were.
 

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I had a friend shoot himself at the beginning of 2008, but here's the fukked up thing: He shot himself once and he somehow survived the first shot and he was still conscience, so he did it again and this time, it was fatal. I can only imagine the pain he was going through after that first one. Damn. :mjcry:
 

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I had a friend shoot himself at the beginning of 2008, but here's the fukked up thing: He shot himself once and he somehow survived the first shot and he was still conscience, so he did it again and this time, it was fatal. I can only imagine the pain he was going through after that first one. Damn. :mjcry:
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The gun jamming. I pointed a glock 19 to my temple when i was in my early 20s.

Also another time when I was high off edibles I had negative and suicidal thoughts. I had the shotty next my bedside . The only thing that kept me from doing it was hiding the actual bullets and forgetting where they were.
I failed. I told my pops and he told me people would miss me. So I didn't try anymore. :manny:
For what it's worth i'm glad you're still around brethren.
 
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