My father slowly spiralled into insainity after the trauma of the Ethiopian war because he watched his mother and father murdered.q I had a biological father around growing up, but i never really had a dad. We had to take care of him and he went to the psych hospital for a decade after a deep psychosis episode that lasted for years. So i know where you are coming from. Seems like internet forums attracts alot of dikkheads who have their own issues