I'm going to hell.

[Tetsuo]

Is it weird that when I'm attracted to a girl I want to hit and choke her?

Sorry, but I stopped reading here

 

[Address_Unknown]

I fukking hate that book and everything that went into creating, promoting and sustaining the hype it had when it came out. It's badly written, overrated bullshyt and the majority of women that read it were pretentious, confused broads who felt sadism was alright once the dude was rich, white and cute or whatever the fukk. I'd rather listen to that Panda cat's music than open that book again. I had to curse a chick out who got mad 'cause I didn't want to watch that fukk ass movie with her. I hate that shyt almost as much as Roger Ebert hates the movie North.

 

[Beck.er.]

I feel a lot better now. I've been not hooking up with chicks. The last girl freaked out when I put my hand on her throat.

But I like control. I'd love to tell a girl what to wear and what to eat. I used to pretty much do that.

Did you discuss those kind of acts and found she was onboard before hand or did it come out of nowhere?

You need to make sure you find a partner that shares and complements your preferences. Don't spring it on or try to convert women that are what you want otherwise but aren't compatible with your sexuality. Don't try to repress it to get a certain girl or maintain a relationship, the sexual frustration could lead to really bad consequences. If you really think it might come from a bad place check out a sex therapist, even just a simple consultation. If you give off Jeffrey Dahmer vibes they'll let you know... or if it's just coming to terms with BDSM preferences and how to express them in a healthy manner.

 

[Sassy]

What is sadism, also how does one find one of these clubs. I gotta explore this shyt. I can't keep not dating. I'm about to lose my mind.

Do I have to call myself a sadist? That sounds evil.

sa·dism
ˈsāˌdizəm/
noun

1. the tendency to derive pleasure, especially sexual gratification, from inflicting pain, suffering, or humiliation on others.
   • (in general use) deliberate cruelty.

Now, as of about calling yourself one, that's your call.

 

[SeveroDrgnfli]

Did you discuss those kind of acts and found she was onboard before hand or did it come out of nowhere?

You need to make sure you find a partner that shares and complements your preferences. Don't spring it on or try to convert women that are what you want otherwise but aren't compatible with your sexuality. Don't try to repress it to get a certain girl or maintain a relationship, the sexual frustration could lead to really bad consequences. If you really think it might come from a bad place check out a sex therapist, even just a simple consultation. If you give off Jeffrey Dahmer vibes they'll let you know... or if it's just coming to terms with BDSM preferences and how to express them in a healthy manner.

Lmao all these girls ever talk about now how freaky they are. So I thought they were with it. I always tell them I like rough sex. I dunno what that means to most people but to me that includes hitting, biting, and choking. Domination and submission.

It doesn't scare me. I'm comfortable with it because I know I don't want to force myself on anyone and if they don't like it I don't like it either. I'd only go to therapy for it if I felt I was crossing a line. Which I'm not.

I've suppressed it for a long time. My last two girls were with it and delevoped it. I didn't even know I liked it until my ex girls brought it out of me.

The girls that I should date are good girls. The girls that are sexually compatible to me are demonic. It's confusing. I'm clean cut, polite, and charming. The girls I should be fukking are not the girls I should be dating. I feel like I have to date two girls.

I posted it here to see how people would respond if I came out the BDSM closet in real life. Lol you see how I've been painted. A murderer. A rapist. A sadist. These are very negative things.

So I guess I gotta keep pretending because let's say I hook up with a chick I work with. Then everybody knows. That would ruin my public image. So what do I do? Not fukk bytches. That's my only option because I don't ever want to be compared to Ted Bundy again.

 

[SeveroDrgnfli]

sa·dism
ˈsāˌdizəm/
noun

1. the tendency to derive pleasure, especially sexual gratification, from inflicting pain, suffering, or humiliation on others.
   • (in general use) deliberate cruelty.

Now, as of about calling yourself one, that's your call.

Naw I'm more into control and pain. I don't want to humiliate anyone. Suffering is fun though. A little torture never killed anybody. Lol.

Before you call me Ted Bundy let me esplain what I mean. I'd tie her hands up and tie her to the headboard. I wouldn't say anything so she gets nervous and scared. I'd start sensually with a massage with oils so she's relaxed. When she starts enjoying it I'd introduce different degrees of pain. The more she enjoys it the higher level of pain.

If she enjoys it too much she'd have to ask my permission to have an orgasm.

Basically I want her to associate her orgasm with pain and giving herself to me entirely. I like the idea of being in a relationship where we both and dominant and submissive. There's nothing hotter than a girl who can take it and give it.

My ex ex girlfriend was bossy. It was hot. She started it all. She'd tell me what to be. I'd be it. She was always pushing lines to be put back in her place. It was fukking hot. She was submissive and dominant. She'd bite me so hard in public and just walk away from me.

But she also pushed lines because she was the boss. I like to be humiliated a little bit. She'd get drunk and do some wild shyt. We'd argue because I don't like being humilated. Next thing you know I'm choking her from the back while pounding her out on the hood of my car.

The only time we were abusive is during sex. Other than that we were a normal couple.

 

[Lady.Libra.]

Abstinence doesn't reset me. It just makes me uninterested in sex. I also want her to beat me up. She has to mean it too. I used to make my girl mad so she would hit me and mean it.

I don't want a love tap. I want to see spots and have double vision.

You take 'Sock it to me, Baby' to a whole other level .

A little 'Make it hurt so good' is awesome in bed but -

You are a sexual sadist.

 

[SeveroDrgnfli]

You take 'Sock it to me, Baby' to a whole other level .

A little 'Make it hurt so good' is awesome in bed but -

You are a sexual sadist.

You take 'Sock it to me, Baby' to a whole other level .

A little 'Make it hurt so good' is awesome in bed but -

You are a sexual sadist.

Yeah looks like I am. The more I think about it. I don't like the word. But I do like some sadistic shyt.

This has been a year of discovery and acceptance for me. I have to accept and explore this too. Man. Lmao I bet there's a bunch of white people into this shyt too. Here we go again!

#blacksadist

 

[Sassy]

Naw I'm more into control and pain. I don't want to humiliate anyone. Suffering is fun though. A little torture never killed anybody. Lol.

Before you call me Ted Bundy let me esplain what I mean. I'd tie her hands up and tie her to the headboard. I wouldn't say anything so she gets nervous and scared. I'd start sensually with a massage with oils so she's relaxed. When she starts enjoying it I'd introduce different degrees of pain. The more she enjoys it the higher level of pain.

If she enjoys it too much she'd have to ask my permission to have an orgasm.

Basically I want her to associate her orgasm with pain and giving herself to me entirely. I like the idea of being in a relationship where we both and dominant and submissive. There's nothing hotter than a girl who can take it and give it.

My ex ex girlfriend was bossy. It was hot. She started it all. She'd tell me what to be. I'd be it. She was always pushing lines to be put back in her place. It was fukking hot. She was submissive and dominant. She'd bite me so hard in public and just walk away from me.

But she also pushed lines because she was the boss. I like to be humiliated a little bit. She'd get drunk and do some wild shyt. We'd argue because I don't like being humilated. Next thing you know I'm choking her from the back while pounding her out on the hood of my car.

The only time we were abusive is during sex. Other than that we were a normal couple.

O_O I wasn't going to call you Ted Bundy lol. Tbh, that didn't even pop my mind when I read this thread.

Now that you explained it better, it just seems like you're into the kinky sex than hurting your partner in bed imo...that and orgasm control

But to answer the question: No, you're not strange or a terrible person. different strokes for different folks, right?

 

[Anerdyblackguy]

Enjoy breh, Enjoy.

 

[SeveroDrgnfli]

Enjoy breh, Enjoy.

Lol I've done this already. It's kind of gross actually. I'm not into anal. It gets too messy if lasts a long time.

I advise against experimenting with anal. Once that door is open you can never go back man! You'll always know.

 

[SemiEnlightenedBum]

bruh,just take some shrooms or acid whilst canoodling that cooch,you'll see plenty of spots,amongst other things..

then,pinch yourself(pawwse)on a pressure point and the pain will follow..

abracadabra

 

[itsyoung!!]

why would you post this on a forum that is 99% male

 

[SeveroDrgnfli]

why would you post this on a forum that is 99% male

I wanted to see if other black people on the coli were into this shyt. Lol its not a big a deal man. There's threads on the front page about trannies and trump.

Also, I'm not worried about my public persona online. It is what it is. fukk with me or not I'm honest and I'm not hating on you, so what the problem is?