Great word.the existential fears of a young boxer: is fighting worth it
if you subscribe to the school of solipsism, nothing is worth it unless you feel it directly impacts you because you are the only thing that holds any value
the ennui of mortality ebbs against the shores of our psyche in many different ways, it's up to you to ride the wave bruv



Some things have happened recently round my way that started to question my viewpoint on fighting. Of course growing up everybody except the nerds wanted to be that tough guy with the rep. So I actually used to start fights a lot over the dumbest shyt. I grew out of that but I would still never back down from any fight and would find a way to get involved in a fight that initially had nothing to do with me. But recently theres been some events that are changing my viewpoints on fighting.
I KOd someone and I got scared because he wasnt waking up. He smashed his head on the concrete real heavy after the punch. It was a hospital job where he had to be carried into a car and took to emergency. He had to stay in for a day I think. So that night Im just thinking how I killed someone and how I was going to be in prison for the rest of my life. The next day the police found me at a park and arrested me. But thankfully it wasnt for murder or manslaughterSo yeah that event changed me a bit.
Then a couple of recent incidences. One where some guy was killed with one punch quite local to me. He got KOd and just never woke up. And some guy got jumped by 5 man and beat to death in my area.
So these events made me think how stupid it is to get into street fights and what really is the point? In this generation does it really assert your dominance over somebody? I mean you can KO some man and look like hot shyt to your friends or whatever and that same man could have a 400k job for all you know. While you broke as shyt are you really the dominant male?
These events for me made me realize life is about self-preservation. What say you?

You aint gotta hate a dude to take they life. As long as they dont mean shyt to you it dont mean nothing. Some people just aint got that much regard for human life in the first place. Especially cause most of these 16 year old kids you referring to aint cold blooded killers. Majority of them just pop caps, and busting a gun is so impersonal that they can do it without remorse. Thats why once all these lil nikkas go up north they turn into fresh booty. Once they take away the steel they aint shyt. These 16 year olds who blast guns aint the real savages, its them nikkas who in the yard keeping razors under they tongue and strangling muhfukkas.most astonishing to me are 16ish year old kids, with similac on their breath taking on the responsibility of killing someone,
they've barely lived, barely know anything about remorse, about life, about forgiveness but yet think they are ready to erase someone from the planet and worst of all they are attempting to kill people who are not even fully people yet; how can you hate someone so much, you barely know them since they have not yet even become themselves. Who you are today is not who you will be tomorrow, same goes for the child you want to kill.
we can make life about more than that